We went to Airport mall the other day to buy some new dresses for our baby. I made sure she was full before we left. Little did we know she needed more oz to doze off. She cried and cried and cried frantically and thr people near us looked disgusted. Thanks, but it's not helping.
On a first thought we were about to return to the basement where we parked our car and feed our baby, but we met a cousin along the way who taught us how to carry a crying baby. It worked I swear! But not for long. A hungry baby is a hungry baby, nothing can stop her from screaming unless her mouth is filled with nipple. Sigh. So we changed our mind. We stopped by at a restaurant to feed the baby with a bottle, besides we were hungry as well.
4oz. Finished. She still cried. Oh no...!!
Shall I take out my nursing cover? I thought to myself. People were giving us asshole faces coz her crying interrupted their peace. Spent almost half an hour to soothe her to sleep, didn't work. A hungry baby is a hungry baby. Period.
Furiously, I went to the basement. Gave her milk, but she still cried. Ohhh maybe the diaper has to be changed, or so I thought. Went to the back of the car and get her diaper changed. Still crying. Loud... I guess somebody must have thought someone must have thrown a baby in the basement. Emm...so stressful. I lost my being. I screamed along with the baby. Only mothers know this feeling... It's terrible!
Luckily, she decided to take the boobs and get her tummy filled and slept. So I went back upstairs to resume my meal. She remained silent, thank god!
Breastfeeding campaign goes wild in hospitals and clinics, but not ALL BUILDINGS provide a nursing room. I never had fed my baby in the toilet, never had to. Im sure some of you mommas have done that before. Poor you..
I saw some ladies use their nursing cover to breastfeed their hungry babies in public, and that includes my SIL? HOW ON EARTH DID THEY DO THAT?? Living in this conservative country makes it hard to accomplish that milestone, at least for me...
People throw faces at us when the baby was crying. Sad. I wonder if this is normal..
For the sake of my baby, I need to find this courage, and then I do not know how and where to start........
Mayra Nadya
Haekal Mikael
Saturday, 20 February 2016
Sunday, 14 February 2016
Homeopathy Doctor
Remember I had announced a doctor of homeopathy whose pills worked like wonders?
http://bruneittc.blogspot.com/2014/07/homeopathy-brunei.html
Dr Zainal, passed away when I was 7 or 8 months pregnant...
Al-fatihah...
http://bruneittc.blogspot.com/2014/07/homeopathy-brunei.html
Dr Zainal, passed away when I was 7 or 8 months pregnant...
Al-fatihah...
I was lucky...
I was lucky....
coz I had the most easiest pregnancy than my peers
coz I have the most supportive husband on earth (ya right~)
coz I did not develop any stretchmarks
coz my tummy were not as big as the others
coz I reached my pre-pregnancy weight a month after my delivery
coz I never had any contractions, never felt one
coz I never had nausea / puked
coz I didnt have fever / cold
coz my feet never got swollen
coz my sugar level and blood pressure were always normal
coz my energy level was OK
coz I felt calmness / serenity throughout the pregnancy
My only complications are...
- headaches
- carpal tunnel / tangan terseliuh
- shortness of breath
- couldnt eat chicken
Ya Allah...I feel so blessed, thank you for this gift...
coz I had the most easiest pregnancy than my peers
coz I have the most supportive husband on earth (ya right~)
coz I did not develop any stretchmarks
coz my tummy were not as big as the others
coz I reached my pre-pregnancy weight a month after my delivery
coz I never had any contractions, never felt one
coz I never had nausea / puked
coz I didnt have fever / cold
coz my feet never got swollen
coz my sugar level and blood pressure were always normal
coz my energy level was OK
coz I felt calmness / serenity throughout the pregnancy
My only complications are...
- headaches
- carpal tunnel / tangan terseliuh
- shortness of breath
- couldnt eat chicken
Ya Allah...I feel so blessed, thank you for this gift...
Saturday, 13 February 2016
She had mild jaundice. Very mild.
Born when she was not ready. Agreed to be induced is the biggest mistake I ever made.
What happened after delivery
The most annoying thing after C-section delivery was to GET OUT OF BED. Like seriously, soooo sakit !!! Tuhan saja tau macam mana sakitnya. The most painful sensation I ever faced in my whole entire life!! The moment it hit me, I swear I did not want to have another child. Ever. But it was back then. Now, hehe...
The nurse encouraged us to do slow walking. But to stand up from sitting was just so unbearable. I had to ask the nurse to bring me pain killer. Still, the pain was so intense.
The first pee after C-section was also, erm... donno what to say... it felt so hot inside my vagina when I tried to pee, mcm ada fire inside burning. Fuhh.... Picking up my pad and disposable underwear were IMPOSSIBLE. Luckily the nurse was so supportive she helped me clear the floor. I also had to ask my husband to put on my socks. I couldnt bend my body, and I never had the courage to see my caesarean scar, until this moment!! Takutttttttt
In my third trimester, watching normal and c section delivery videos on youtube was very fulfilling, the thrill was there. NOW, never, ever!!! Esp the C-section videos. NO!!! Takut!!! Sakit!!! Ngilu!!! Tuhan saja tahu!!!
4-5 days living with pain killer. I only felt better about a week after the surgery, tho I can still feel the tenderness on and off, until now. The scar is itchy as well. Now, my baby is coming to 8 weeks of age, I can already do the fast walk. But still, sometimes my whole body aches sakit kebas ngilu pedih... I guess pasal nda ambil berat tentang berpantang. On day 38, I quit wearing stokin. I only did 1 time bertajul, 2 sessions of post-natal massages as of now, 1 time mandi lulur and 2 times mandi daun. I didnt do pilis, bediang, betangas. And I rather be in an air-conditioned room, coz berpeluh nda nyaman rasanya lapas bersalin. Maybe it's just me. Yatah mymum riuh huhu.... Sorry babu...
As for the bleeding, kdg2 heavy kdg2 light. Kdg2 kering, then after a week lebat balik. Now no more.
Now Im doing great, and will be ready to be TTC-ing after 1 year hehe ops... doctor strictly said 2 years, but Im thinking about my age now. Bukannya makin muda. I need 1 more baby, in sha Allah, hopefully Tuhan will make things easier for us nanti. As of now, we are enjoying ourselves with our precious lil baby Mayra, wanna spoil her puas2 before ia ada adik. Mudah2an aaamiiiinnn...
Oh yea, I started my Gaia regimen already... better be careful during lovemaking, need to track my ovulation before ehem ehem otherwise doctor will kill me huhu till next time.
The nurse encouraged us to do slow walking. But to stand up from sitting was just so unbearable. I had to ask the nurse to bring me pain killer. Still, the pain was so intense.
The first pee after C-section was also, erm... donno what to say... it felt so hot inside my vagina when I tried to pee, mcm ada fire inside burning. Fuhh.... Picking up my pad and disposable underwear were IMPOSSIBLE. Luckily the nurse was so supportive she helped me clear the floor. I also had to ask my husband to put on my socks. I couldnt bend my body, and I never had the courage to see my caesarean scar, until this moment!! Takutttttttt
In my third trimester, watching normal and c section delivery videos on youtube was very fulfilling, the thrill was there. NOW, never, ever!!! Esp the C-section videos. NO!!! Takut!!! Sakit!!! Ngilu!!! Tuhan saja tahu!!!
4-5 days living with pain killer. I only felt better about a week after the surgery, tho I can still feel the tenderness on and off, until now. The scar is itchy as well. Now, my baby is coming to 8 weeks of age, I can already do the fast walk. But still, sometimes my whole body aches sakit kebas ngilu pedih... I guess pasal nda ambil berat tentang berpantang. On day 38, I quit wearing stokin. I only did 1 time bertajul, 2 sessions of post-natal massages as of now, 1 time mandi lulur and 2 times mandi daun. I didnt do pilis, bediang, betangas. And I rather be in an air-conditioned room, coz berpeluh nda nyaman rasanya lapas bersalin. Maybe it's just me. Yatah mymum riuh huhu.... Sorry babu...
As for the bleeding, kdg2 heavy kdg2 light. Kdg2 kering, then after a week lebat balik. Now no more.
Now Im doing great, and will be ready to be TTC-ing after 1 year hehe ops... doctor strictly said 2 years, but Im thinking about my age now. Bukannya makin muda. I need 1 more baby, in sha Allah, hopefully Tuhan will make things easier for us nanti. As of now, we are enjoying ourselves with our precious lil baby Mayra, wanna spoil her puas2 before ia ada adik. Mudah2an aaamiiiinnn...
Oh yea, I started my Gaia regimen already... better be careful during lovemaking, need to track my ovulation before ehem ehem otherwise doctor will kill me huhu till next time.
What happened before the delivery
On week 38, I went to RIPAS for my routine check. Dr Azmah, at that time, suggested to run an induction on week 39. According to her, there were no use to wait until 40 weeks term, coz week 39 is already considered as full term. Besides, I am on thyroid medication and due to my previous miscarriages, she advised so.
On week 38 day 6 (21st December 2015), I checked in and was admitted in Ward 32. First induction was made in the morning at 6.30am. No cervix opening. Second induction took place in the afternoon around 2pm, still no progress, zero dilation. Third induction was made on the next day at 7am, and still nothing.
The Indian doctor simply say "You are the right candidate for C-section", and I was like, what?? Can't I just wait for another few days coz maybe the baby was not ready yet. Err, no... Not possible... I cried coz I really wanted to experience the normal way of delivery. But it never happened. Not long after, a Chinese doctor went in to see me and we had a discussion about the C-section. So it was final. C-section to be carried out at 2pm (22nd December 2015).
The most annoying part before C-section was the catheter. One hand was attached to the IV drip, and one hand I have to use to carry the catheter. The holding part was not hard, the inserting part was horrible. And walking with the catheter on was damn, erm, not so comfortable. I whined and complained to a nurse, but it was just the way it was, a standard procedure applied to all C-section candidates.
I was put on the bed and pushed to the main operation theater. Long story short, the experience itself was so unnerving. I was put under spinal anesthetic, not epidural. The difference is that, with epidural, the bius dosage can be adjusted and will be off after the surgery. With spinal, we have to lie down for another 24 hours after the surgery, imagine, you cant move but you have to get and feed your baby who was kept right next to you inside her cot, I couldnt reach her !!! And my husband nor my mother were not allowed to stay in to provide a helping hand. They can only stay in with me if I checked in into a private room (first class room) which will be given once I have learnt how to walk and after I have farted (funny, but there's a reason why). I was not allowed to eat until I farted, damn I have not eaten for more than 40 hours since the night before my third induction (candidates were asked to fast few hours before the surgery so I was not allowed to take my breakfast on 22nd December). If I remember correctly I only ate in the evening on 23rd December, my last meal was on 21st December at 9pm. Crazy! Yet I have not farted but I had to eat coz I was damn hungry! Oh to those of you yang kan kana operate, make sure to drink prune juice after surgery, it helped a lot to avoid unnecessary additional pain !!
When they did the spinal, I felt a bolt of thunder went down my right leg, and according to the practitioner, it was completely normal. Painful I tell you! Then bermulalah episod tarik menarik di bahagian perut. I could not feel the pain, but I could feel the pulling pressure. My lower body was numb. My hands were shaking, I felt really cold. The Indian doctor who did the spinal stood right beside me, he was really sweet, he told me what to expect, and what to feel. He tried to soothe me, and it was of a great help.
Suddenly, my tummy felt lighter, but still no sign of baby. I asked the nurse what happened. She told me that the umbilical cord wrapped my baby's neck twice, and left a blue mark on her neck. Nda lama atu, I heard her cry. OMG. The most beautiful sound on earth! Her cry was so beautiful, for me lah huhu... I could not wait to see her face!!! and when I did, I kissed her and cry!!! This is the baby whom we have waited for almost 3 years after 4 miscarriages !!!
The baby was brought out to see my husband, her grandmas, grandpas. I were sent to the recovery unit. There, they checked my blood pressure. At first it was really low, coz I was shaking, trembling, kajar2 due to the anesthetic. I felt so cold I wish they could cover me with dozens of blanket. It took about 5 minutes to get my normal blood pressure back and later on being brought to Ward 33 to settle down.
My husband and my MIL came in around 5pm (baby was born at 3.10pm), see how strict they were??? But it was good coz I could have my good rest before receiving any visitors.
Mayra Nadya Izzara was born on 22nd December 2015, at 3.10pm, weigh 2.65 kg, same birthday like her maternal grandpa a.k.a my dad :) ;'D
On week 38 day 6 (21st December 2015), I checked in and was admitted in Ward 32. First induction was made in the morning at 6.30am. No cervix opening. Second induction took place in the afternoon around 2pm, still no progress, zero dilation. Third induction was made on the next day at 7am, and still nothing.
The Indian doctor simply say "You are the right candidate for C-section", and I was like, what?? Can't I just wait for another few days coz maybe the baby was not ready yet. Err, no... Not possible... I cried coz I really wanted to experience the normal way of delivery. But it never happened. Not long after, a Chinese doctor went in to see me and we had a discussion about the C-section. So it was final. C-section to be carried out at 2pm (22nd December 2015).
The most annoying part before C-section was the catheter. One hand was attached to the IV drip, and one hand I have to use to carry the catheter. The holding part was not hard, the inserting part was horrible. And walking with the catheter on was damn, erm, not so comfortable. I whined and complained to a nurse, but it was just the way it was, a standard procedure applied to all C-section candidates.
I was put on the bed and pushed to the main operation theater. Long story short, the experience itself was so unnerving. I was put under spinal anesthetic, not epidural. The difference is that, with epidural, the bius dosage can be adjusted and will be off after the surgery. With spinal, we have to lie down for another 24 hours after the surgery, imagine, you cant move but you have to get and feed your baby who was kept right next to you inside her cot, I couldnt reach her !!! And my husband nor my mother were not allowed to stay in to provide a helping hand. They can only stay in with me if I checked in into a private room (first class room) which will be given once I have learnt how to walk and after I have farted (funny, but there's a reason why). I was not allowed to eat until I farted, damn I have not eaten for more than 40 hours since the night before my third induction (candidates were asked to fast few hours before the surgery so I was not allowed to take my breakfast on 22nd December). If I remember correctly I only ate in the evening on 23rd December, my last meal was on 21st December at 9pm. Crazy! Yet I have not farted but I had to eat coz I was damn hungry! Oh to those of you yang kan kana operate, make sure to drink prune juice after surgery, it helped a lot to avoid unnecessary additional pain !!
When they did the spinal, I felt a bolt of thunder went down my right leg, and according to the practitioner, it was completely normal. Painful I tell you! Then bermulalah episod tarik menarik di bahagian perut. I could not feel the pain, but I could feel the pulling pressure. My lower body was numb. My hands were shaking, I felt really cold. The Indian doctor who did the spinal stood right beside me, he was really sweet, he told me what to expect, and what to feel. He tried to soothe me, and it was of a great help.
Suddenly, my tummy felt lighter, but still no sign of baby. I asked the nurse what happened. She told me that the umbilical cord wrapped my baby's neck twice, and left a blue mark on her neck. Nda lama atu, I heard her cry. OMG. The most beautiful sound on earth! Her cry was so beautiful, for me lah huhu... I could not wait to see her face!!! and when I did, I kissed her and cry!!! This is the baby whom we have waited for almost 3 years after 4 miscarriages !!!
The baby was brought out to see my husband, her grandmas, grandpas. I were sent to the recovery unit. There, they checked my blood pressure. At first it was really low, coz I was shaking, trembling, kajar2 due to the anesthetic. I felt so cold I wish they could cover me with dozens of blanket. It took about 5 minutes to get my normal blood pressure back and later on being brought to Ward 33 to settle down.
My husband and my MIL came in around 5pm (baby was born at 3.10pm), see how strict they were??? But it was good coz I could have my good rest before receiving any visitors.
Mayra Nadya Izzara was born on 22nd December 2015, at 3.10pm, weigh 2.65 kg, same birthday like her maternal grandpa a.k.a my dad :) ;'D
Saturday, 9 January 2016
Quick update (Baby Mayra is here!)
Sorry for the long absent! Handling a baby is a 24/7 job, seriously ! But I love spending time with my baby no matter how tiring it is :D
I delivered a baby girl named Mayra on 22nd December 2015 by C-section after 3 failed inductions. She came into this world one week earlier than her due date. She also shares the same birthday with her grandpa (my dad). Long story. Will post on it as soon as I have the free time ehe...
Friday, 18 December 2015
38 weeks 3 days
18 December 2015 (Friday)
4.40am
Hi..it's been a long time since my last post...
There are quite a lot of things to be shared on here but I guess I dont have much time for that, maybe will do that after the baby has born.
Today, around 2.30am, I woke up (as usual) to pee. Ive lost some of my mucus plug since few days ago bit by bit of which the color is always white creamy. But it is not the case now. Just recently I passed out what seemed like blood clots / dark red + brownish gelatin type of discharge.
Doctor has warned to go to the labor room once there's a bloody show. But I told my husband to get ready only later at around 6am. Thia is because, my water has not yet been broken, so we still hv more time to get ready and to catch enough rest.
Oh..by the way, Im in this situation of a back labor, where the baby is head down but facing upwards (posterior) instead of downwards (anterior). So I never get to experience Braxton Hicks or any sort of contractions (my hub said I was lucky!) But I get a lot of back pain that radiates down my legs.
Baby has been really active since last night...this moment I can still feel her squirming around, hoping really bad she can turn around and face my spine. Without contractions I have no idea whether or not I am in active labor...
According to the doctor I consulted, back labor was a bit intense and harder to push. It took more time for baby to slide down and most of the time requires medical assistance such as by using forcep or vacuum to help baby out.
I really wish I can give birth normally without having to be induced or given any pain medication. As much as I wanted, I would prefer a drug free delivery.
1 more hour before checking in into labor, I ready to have her in my arms. My hub seems so excited as well.
Nervous...until next time
Friday, 6 November 2015
Got admitted on 01 November 2015
Today : 06th November 2015
Week 32 Day 3
Sunday, 01st November 2015, I had the most terrible experience on my breathing. I could not breath, I was suffocating, I cried, I had to yawn a hundred times just to be able to get full cycle of inhalation and that night, I thought I would die. No kidding. Shortness of breath, it's like you are standing on top of a cliff on the edge, waiting to be knocked off and fall, and eventually die.
I am pretty sure a lot of pregnant ladies had experienced this before. I did some googling, and it says this kind of symptom is pretty much normal, we just had to deal with it. I was only around 31weeks plus and I still had few more weeks to go. Therefore I decided to go to the hospital thru A&E. If this is normal, then I would rather have this baby NOW! I couldnt take it anymore. My nose is small and flat, it's always been blocked coz I have an acute sinusitis, because of this, I have a very limited amount of oxygen passes down into my lungs. Breathing through my mouth didnt really help that much. I swear to God, it was terrible. I've been having this symptom starting week 30 +
So they did ECG and Echo, blood test to check on ferrous, oxygen saturation and so on. Amazingly each test turns out to be normal. My oxygen saturation was 99%. Heart was beating well. No abnormalities were found. Iron and Haemoglobin level were perfect. Then how on earth I had difficulties in breathing. Ruled out everything, they came up with a conclusion that my sinus cavities were inflamed. They gave me a nasal spray, which I only used once, and the symptom did alleviate, but the problem is still there.
Nowadays, I just need to flush out the mucus from my throat and nose, and Im doing better. The key is to ensure the room has a good ventilation. Hopefully I dont have to deal with it again in the near future. Another logic might be that the baby is getting bigger, she pushed my organs to a point where the diaphragm could not work properly at times. I dont know... I really hope I dont need to encounter this thing again, coz I am so keen to be back on TTC board again when the baby starts feeding, around the age of 6 months. I love my baby, I love being pregnant, but I have to also deal with the complications that come along with each pregnancy.. Shortness of breath is no joke... Seriously...
I got discharged on 3rd November 2015.
Week 32 Day 3
Sunday, 01st November 2015, I had the most terrible experience on my breathing. I could not breath, I was suffocating, I cried, I had to yawn a hundred times just to be able to get full cycle of inhalation and that night, I thought I would die. No kidding. Shortness of breath, it's like you are standing on top of a cliff on the edge, waiting to be knocked off and fall, and eventually die.
I am pretty sure a lot of pregnant ladies had experienced this before. I did some googling, and it says this kind of symptom is pretty much normal, we just had to deal with it. I was only around 31weeks plus and I still had few more weeks to go. Therefore I decided to go to the hospital thru A&E. If this is normal, then I would rather have this baby NOW! I couldnt take it anymore. My nose is small and flat, it's always been blocked coz I have an acute sinusitis, because of this, I have a very limited amount of oxygen passes down into my lungs. Breathing through my mouth didnt really help that much. I swear to God, it was terrible. I've been having this symptom starting week 30 +
So they did ECG and Echo, blood test to check on ferrous, oxygen saturation and so on. Amazingly each test turns out to be normal. My oxygen saturation was 99%. Heart was beating well. No abnormalities were found. Iron and Haemoglobin level were perfect. Then how on earth I had difficulties in breathing. Ruled out everything, they came up with a conclusion that my sinus cavities were inflamed. They gave me a nasal spray, which I only used once, and the symptom did alleviate, but the problem is still there.
Nowadays, I just need to flush out the mucus from my throat and nose, and Im doing better. The key is to ensure the room has a good ventilation. Hopefully I dont have to deal with it again in the near future. Another logic might be that the baby is getting bigger, she pushed my organs to a point where the diaphragm could not work properly at times. I dont know... I really hope I dont need to encounter this thing again, coz I am so keen to be back on TTC board again when the baby starts feeding, around the age of 6 months. I love my baby, I love being pregnant, but I have to also deal with the complications that come along with each pregnancy.. Shortness of breath is no joke... Seriously...
I got discharged on 3rd November 2015.
Sunday, 1 November 2015
Most annoying pregnancy side effect during Third Trimester
Top number 1.
SHORTNESS OF BREATH
Sometimes I believe that this will be the cause of my death. It is really terrible, sometimes I wish I could deliver this baby faster
Number 2.
Carpal Tunnel Syndrome on my right hand. The numbness amd tingling sensation, ugh! Sometimes I feel the muscles esp on my middle finger are dead, I sometimes have the feeling to chop it off.
Number 3.
Shortness of Breath. Oh, have I mentioned about it earlier on. So annoying....
3D / 4D Ultrasound
Today : 1 November 2015
Week 31 Day 5
Baby's position : Head downwards, ready for her Birthday
We now get to see our baby !!! Went to Dr Ding Clinic yesterday for the scan and it took around 20-30 minutes to finish. Oh my... the first glimpse of you reminds me of Taufik, my husband's first and only nephew. Second glimpse you look like Zatul, Taufik's mother a.k.a my sister in law. I guess his DNA is too strong in you my dear.. lol.. you have his eyes, his nose, my chin, my nephew's lips, and my cheek :D yup, you are soooooo chubby you weigh around 2kg right about this time. You look awwwwwfully so sweet! Just like mommy. Heh... Mommy and babah cant wait to see u in less than 2 months time baby girl !!! We love you already, to the moon and back !!! Promise!
Oh...the doctor gave us 2 cds. 1 cd has about 50 pictures of baby, and the other one has 2 videos in it. All in all, costs us $220. Not bad !!
Thursday, 22 October 2015
30 weeks 2 days
Today: 22th October 2015
Week 30 Day 2
Woohoo ! I am now in my third trimester already. Baby is an active girl, I must say. Yes, GIRL ! Hehe... No secrets. She's been kickin' really low recently, I can strongly feel the pressure on my vajayjay, or cervix, to be precised.
We are yet to see her face on a 3D/4D ultrasound... The government clinic technicians are not trained to do the 3D/4D ultrasound, as per mentioned by the doctor I met that day. So our only hope is to opt for the Private clinics, as usual. Either Dr Ding Clinic at Yayasan, CY Lim Clinic at Gadong, or at Miri/Limbang... Coz I heard it is very cheap to do ultrasounds in Miri/Limbang. If I remember correctly, for a 3D ultrasound, it only costs around RM100, equivalent to BND 30. Woaa...
Here, a 3D ultrasound might cost around $100++ and a 4D ultrasound costs around $200. Nevermind, we gonna decide pretty soon coz we can't wait to see how she looks like... I really hope she has her daddy's nose, coz mine is pretty flat haha..
Did our second anatomy test when I was around 26 weeks, again, all went back normal. My GTT was fine too. So I have no issues on sugar level. Alhamdulillah...
Erm, so far I only gain around 4-5 kg, the weight did fluctuate tho, last week I lost nearly a kilo. Doctor was not worried. So I should not be worried too, thinking that I am huge to begin with when I found out that I was pregnant. I really thought I would become fatter, but Alhamdulillah, baby is good to Mommy, she gave me food aversions, in another words, she controlled my diet. LOL.
We have a name arranged for her. Not into fancy fancy names. I saw many ppl nowadays are giving their baby girl a very LONNNNG LOOONG name, hard to remember and hard to pronounce. Well, I have no right to condemn, coz it's their choice, their babies. Hehe..
This baby will be named as simple as possible, but sounds good to the ears.
Erm, we still need to buy lots and lots of things for her. All the important necessities have already been bought for her, only left with big and huge expensive stuffs, such as stroller, car seat, and so on, which we have decided to buy either using this month's budget, or next month's. We shall see..
Less than 10 weeks to go... I have so many friends on my FB who delivered earlier before the 38th week mark. Most of them delivered around week 34, and it gave me chills down my spine huhu.... coz I have no idea how well my body can cope to the pain during labour :( Nevertheless, I cant wait to have her in my arms... Oh baby ! Mudahan jua baby panjang umur. Aamiin !
Mommy and Babah can't wait to have you here in this world! xoxo
Week 30 Day 2
Woohoo ! I am now in my third trimester already. Baby is an active girl, I must say. Yes, GIRL ! Hehe... No secrets. She's been kickin' really low recently, I can strongly feel the pressure on my vajayjay, or cervix, to be precised.
We are yet to see her face on a 3D/4D ultrasound... The government clinic technicians are not trained to do the 3D/4D ultrasound, as per mentioned by the doctor I met that day. So our only hope is to opt for the Private clinics, as usual. Either Dr Ding Clinic at Yayasan, CY Lim Clinic at Gadong, or at Miri/Limbang... Coz I heard it is very cheap to do ultrasounds in Miri/Limbang. If I remember correctly, for a 3D ultrasound, it only costs around RM100, equivalent to BND 30. Woaa...
Here, a 3D ultrasound might cost around $100++ and a 4D ultrasound costs around $200. Nevermind, we gonna decide pretty soon coz we can't wait to see how she looks like... I really hope she has her daddy's nose, coz mine is pretty flat haha..
Did our second anatomy test when I was around 26 weeks, again, all went back normal. My GTT was fine too. So I have no issues on sugar level. Alhamdulillah...
Erm, so far I only gain around 4-5 kg, the weight did fluctuate tho, last week I lost nearly a kilo. Doctor was not worried. So I should not be worried too, thinking that I am huge to begin with when I found out that I was pregnant. I really thought I would become fatter, but Alhamdulillah, baby is good to Mommy, she gave me food aversions, in another words, she controlled my diet. LOL.
We have a name arranged for her. Not into fancy fancy names. I saw many ppl nowadays are giving their baby girl a very LONNNNG LOOONG name, hard to remember and hard to pronounce. Well, I have no right to condemn, coz it's their choice, their babies. Hehe..
This baby will be named as simple as possible, but sounds good to the ears.
Erm, we still need to buy lots and lots of things for her. All the important necessities have already been bought for her, only left with big and huge expensive stuffs, such as stroller, car seat, and so on, which we have decided to buy either using this month's budget, or next month's. We shall see..
Less than 10 weeks to go... I have so many friends on my FB who delivered earlier before the 38th week mark. Most of them delivered around week 34, and it gave me chills down my spine huhu.... coz I have no idea how well my body can cope to the pain during labour :( Nevertheless, I cant wait to have her in my arms... Oh baby ! Mudahan jua baby panjang umur. Aamiin !
Mommy and Babah can't wait to have you here in this world! xoxo
Tuesday, 22 September 2015
Maternity Cloths and Appointments
Today: 22 September 2015
Week 26 Day 0
I am still using my old clothing. Haven't bought any maternity dresses yet coz my tummy didn't really grow as much as I expected.
Went to gynae RIPAS yesterday for another consultation.
Did the routine : heartbeat was fine, 150bpm and urine was normal, and that's it. LOL.
Next appointment will be on the 26th for my GTT (Glucose Tolerance Test).
Next ultrasound will be on 5th October.
Not much to say tho. We did few relocation of furniture in our room to give space for our baby. Will be buying more and more stuffs for BabyM this week!
Baby still kicks like mad. Hehe... It's ok sweetheart. We both love you till Jannah... Can't wait to see you! xoxo
Week 26 Day 0
I am still using my old clothing. Haven't bought any maternity dresses yet coz my tummy didn't really grow as much as I expected.
Went to gynae RIPAS yesterday for another consultation.
Did the routine : heartbeat was fine, 150bpm and urine was normal, and that's it. LOL.
Next appointment will be on the 26th for my GTT (Glucose Tolerance Test).
Next ultrasound will be on 5th October.
Not much to say tho. We did few relocation of furniture in our room to give space for our baby. Will be buying more and more stuffs for BabyM this week!
Baby still kicks like mad. Hehe... It's ok sweetheart. We both love you till Jannah... Can't wait to see you! xoxo
Tuesday, 15 September 2015
Trust me...i didnt gain as much weight as expected during this pregnancy
Today 15 September 2015
Week 25 Day 0
Only gained 3.9kg since day 1 of my pregnancy...doctor was not bothered. So I guess that's ok. Furthermore, Im huge. I shouldnt gain more than 11kg as advised.
Monday, 14 September 2015
Strong Kicks
Week 24 and Day 6
My baby recently grows enough muscle and strong bones to actually buat mommy nangis kesakitan when she kicks. Lol... I exaggerate a lil bit. But her kicks are getting more and more kuat nowadays....
Love you BabyM, mommy and babah can't wait to see you... xoxo
My baby recently grows enough muscle and strong bones to actually buat mommy nangis kesakitan when she kicks. Lol... I exaggerate a lil bit. But her kicks are getting more and more kuat nowadays....
Love you BabyM, mommy and babah can't wait to see you... xoxo
NT Scan (12 weeks+) and Anatomy Scan (21 weeks+)
Today: 14th September 2015
Week 24 and Day 6
That day we went to gynae RIPAS for our routine check. I was expecting the doctor to do NT Scan but she didn't do it. When we were about to be dismissed then only I requested the NT Scan to be done, since it's about time.
I really hate it. At RIPAS hospital, they won't carry out any tests if you didn't voice out. Sigh..
So, my NT Scan went normal. The thickness was just around 1.2-1.3mm so the chance of Down Syndrome is pretty low. You only need to worry if the thickness goes above 3mm.
A week later, went to Dr Ding Clinic at Yayasan to check for NT Scan. Same result.
If a nasal bone is present it is also a good sign the baby wont have Down Syndrome. Mine? They didn't even bother to check. I have a flat nose, so I hope baby wont inherit mine.
On the other hand...
An anatomy scan is an ultrasound scan of your baby to assess if the baby is growing and developing normally.
The doctor from gynae RIPAS checked the brain, heart, kidney, stomach, and so on. She said everything seems normal. It only took her 2 minutes and that's it.
I did a lot of research before any scans. I did so many reading on googles and what not. Most of the time, the anatomy scan will be carried out on a long session. Thorough examination will be done on each part of the baby's organ. But this was not the case. It took them 2 minutes and we were done. Pff ! So pissed off.
Then a week later we went to CY Lim Clinic at Gadong (under Dr Emylina, she's highly recommended, TIP TOP service) to get the anatomy scan done. Still, same result, baby seems to be healthy and no deformities have been found. But the good thing is that, each session I had with her were never short. She explained one by one, she went into deep details and explained to us why this and why that. Usually each session will last about half an hour. Puas hati. She printed so many images also, not the karit type of doctor. Oh, the ultrasound didnt cost much either. Usually we spent around $50-65 only for each session. Dr Ding only 5 minutes charged us $100-120 per session. Uh! I know his machine is way advanced, but so far, I didn't see any difference ultrasound machine di Ding Clinic and CY Lim Clinic. Both are clear..
If you happen to go for an ultrasound, go to CY Lim Clinic and look for Dr Emylina. By the way, she didnt pay me for this advert haha... Good service deserves recognition.
Wednesday, 9 September 2015
VIABLE Pregnancy ! ^_~
Today : 09 September 2015
Week 24 and Day 1
Weight gain throughout this pregnancy : 4kg :-(
It's been a while... and my pregnancy is now VIABLE !
What does a viable pregnancy means to us?
Say, Im gonna start an early labor *touch wood*, the baby will have a 50% chance of survival.
This is because, most of the organs and the lung have already been developed (lungs not perfectly developed tho). Still require NICU / SICU nurses to look after the baby for months so that the baby will grow normally and healthily. There will be some complications tho, mostly the developmental part of the kid.
I really wish I can keep this baby in my womb till it's due date.
Pregnancy is a blessing, but the side effects that came with it were not really pleasant.
Especially at nights. Huhu... Frequent visit to the toilet, uncomfy sleeping position, blocked nose, not being able to breath properly, heavy snore like nobody's business (luckily hubby never complained haha), headaches (this issue never resolved since day 1), occasional leg cramps, dogs barking in the middle of the night, bloody dreams (dreamt about ponti-bebeh once, huh!), ligament pain, the list goes on and on and on...
My eczema, is getting worse, I no longer use the cream the skin doctor gave me coz it doesnt do any good. Usually I will use TRIDERM to treat my eczema, but I am not sure if it is safe to be used during pregnancy...
And, those annoying red itchy spots in the middle of my chest, in between my boobs. Speaking about boobs, I am so so disappointed that they do not have any progress to grow big. They sore sometimes, but that's about it, I am still using the same old bra, no changes nothing. I so jelus bila tengok other women with huge boobs during their pregnancies. Mine is just the same old boobies. Pff!
My shoes are getting more and more fitter, I guess my feet are now swelling tho I can't really see any obvious lumps.
Oh ya...since yesterday I notice my urine will remain yellow no mater how much water I consumed. It is easy to get dehydrated during pregnancy. and being dehydrated during pregnant is NOT GOOD. It can cause early contractions, preterm labor, lack of amniotic fluid and the baby's legs and hands can be deformed. SCARY thought....
Recently, I feel like I wanna sleep the whole day. So I make time for my naps, luckily in my office ada sofa ehehehe...
Later will give updates about my ANATOMY SCAN result.
Feels so sleepy already, and time is now 12.28pm
Week 24 and Day 1
Weight gain throughout this pregnancy : 4kg :-(
It's been a while... and my pregnancy is now VIABLE !
What does a viable pregnancy means to us?
Say, Im gonna start an early labor *touch wood*, the baby will have a 50% chance of survival.
This is because, most of the organs and the lung have already been developed (lungs not perfectly developed tho). Still require NICU / SICU nurses to look after the baby for months so that the baby will grow normally and healthily. There will be some complications tho, mostly the developmental part of the kid.
I really wish I can keep this baby in my womb till it's due date.
Pregnancy is a blessing, but the side effects that came with it were not really pleasant.
Especially at nights. Huhu... Frequent visit to the toilet, uncomfy sleeping position, blocked nose, not being able to breath properly, heavy snore like nobody's business (luckily hubby never complained haha), headaches (this issue never resolved since day 1), occasional leg cramps, dogs barking in the middle of the night, bloody dreams (dreamt about ponti-bebeh once, huh!), ligament pain, the list goes on and on and on...
My eczema, is getting worse, I no longer use the cream the skin doctor gave me coz it doesnt do any good. Usually I will use TRIDERM to treat my eczema, but I am not sure if it is safe to be used during pregnancy...
And, those annoying red itchy spots in the middle of my chest, in between my boobs. Speaking about boobs, I am so so disappointed that they do not have any progress to grow big. They sore sometimes, but that's about it, I am still using the same old bra, no changes nothing. I so jelus bila tengok other women with huge boobs during their pregnancies. Mine is just the same old boobies. Pff!
My shoes are getting more and more fitter, I guess my feet are now swelling tho I can't really see any obvious lumps.
Oh ya...since yesterday I notice my urine will remain yellow no mater how much water I consumed. It is easy to get dehydrated during pregnancy. and being dehydrated during pregnant is NOT GOOD. It can cause early contractions, preterm labor, lack of amniotic fluid and the baby's legs and hands can be deformed. SCARY thought....
Recently, I feel like I wanna sleep the whole day. So I make time for my naps, luckily in my office ada sofa ehehehe...
Later will give updates about my ANATOMY SCAN result.
Feels so sleepy already, and time is now 12.28pm
Thursday, 13 August 2015
First time bleeding (red blood)
13th August 2015
20 weeks + 2 days
I experienced 1 time bleeding when I was 19weeks 6days pregnant.
Usually, I will only see whitish stringy mucus, creamish kind of lotion type, egg white cervical mucus + brownish + blackish snot (which the doctor said it was just old blood being flushed out).
So that night, when I wiped and saw the red color, I was....em..a little bit on panic,
coz I don't wanna lose this baby.... We've been this far already and I don't want to give up.
The red blood comes with the egg white cervical mucus with a brown tint as well.
and that was it. No more after that *fingers crossed*
The good thing is...............starting 20 weeks 1 day of pregnancy, I can already feel the baby's movements!!! Sometimes a few kicks ! Not strong enough to record it on camera yet. I am pretty sure those are baby kicks! Before this, I only felt some flickers, flutters, and bubbles. Now that it's getting more intense, oh Im so happy ! ^^ so so very happy ^^
Grow well baby...
Oh yea, for 3 consecutive days, I keep on losing weight.
Actually my weight fluctuates during this pregnancy.
I am now 5months pregnant and only gain around 1.9kg :(
Im a bit concern about this and will talk to my doctor again about this issue.
Last time she was not worried at all, looking at my BMI she does not expect to see huge increment.
I had diarrhea last week, but I managed to gain some weight but not for long...
Next ultrasound (anatomy yay !!) will be on 17th August 2015.
I can't wait to see you babyM...kisskiss!
20 weeks + 2 days
I experienced 1 time bleeding when I was 19weeks 6days pregnant.
Usually, I will only see whitish stringy mucus, creamish kind of lotion type, egg white cervical mucus + brownish + blackish snot (which the doctor said it was just old blood being flushed out).
So that night, when I wiped and saw the red color, I was....em..a little bit on panic,
coz I don't wanna lose this baby.... We've been this far already and I don't want to give up.
The red blood comes with the egg white cervical mucus with a brown tint as well.
and that was it. No more after that *fingers crossed*
The good thing is...............starting 20 weeks 1 day of pregnancy, I can already feel the baby's movements!!! Sometimes a few kicks ! Not strong enough to record it on camera yet. I am pretty sure those are baby kicks! Before this, I only felt some flickers, flutters, and bubbles. Now that it's getting more intense, oh Im so happy ! ^^ so so very happy ^^
Grow well baby...
Oh yea, for 3 consecutive days, I keep on losing weight.
Actually my weight fluctuates during this pregnancy.
I am now 5months pregnant and only gain around 1.9kg :(
Im a bit concern about this and will talk to my doctor again about this issue.
Last time she was not worried at all, looking at my BMI she does not expect to see huge increment.
I had diarrhea last week, but I managed to gain some weight but not for long...
Next ultrasound (anatomy yay !!) will be on 17th August 2015.
I can't wait to see you babyM...kisskiss!
Tuesday, 4 August 2015
Sleeping quality is now getting terrible
Today : 19 weeks 0 days
I rather sleep on my back, it feels so good and so natural and somehow it's the most comfortable position on earth to get a good night sleep.
However, according to Mr.Google, it is best to sleep on either sides, preferable on the left side cause baby can benefit a lot from it, such as good blood circulation, baby can receive good amount of nutrients, and the umbilical cord will function at its best.
Ive been sleeping on my left side for the past few weeks. It felt soooo terrible !!!! Sleeping is no longer a fun thing to do. I woke up at nights so often just to make sure I'm on my side, but only to wake up looking at the ceilings, most of the time.
The con of lying on my back will actually cut supplies of oxygen to my baby in the uterus. How true is that, I don't really know. But if lying on my side is so good for the baby how come at nights I have to be awake and finding my self lying on my back? Isn't that how my body tells me that lying on my left side might as well not good for the baby? I believe the body has it own natural way to notify our self that something is just not right and you have to move and re-position yourself so that you can be comfortable and can function normally.
Nowadays, when I wanted to go to sleep, I would grunt and force myself to lay down and pretend to be okay having to shift my body to either side. My hubby bought me a pregnancy pillow, still it does not really serve its whole purpose. Huhu...
Counting, I still have 21 terrible weeks to go before I can sleep peacefully. Not mati okay. LOL
I...want...to....still....sleep.....on.....my.....back.......coz....Im....a....back....sleeper
I rather sleep on my back, it feels so good and so natural and somehow it's the most comfortable position on earth to get a good night sleep.
However, according to Mr.Google, it is best to sleep on either sides, preferable on the left side cause baby can benefit a lot from it, such as good blood circulation, baby can receive good amount of nutrients, and the umbilical cord will function at its best.
Ive been sleeping on my left side for the past few weeks. It felt soooo terrible !!!! Sleeping is no longer a fun thing to do. I woke up at nights so often just to make sure I'm on my side, but only to wake up looking at the ceilings, most of the time.
The con of lying on my back will actually cut supplies of oxygen to my baby in the uterus. How true is that, I don't really know. But if lying on my side is so good for the baby how come at nights I have to be awake and finding my self lying on my back? Isn't that how my body tells me that lying on my left side might as well not good for the baby? I believe the body has it own natural way to notify our self that something is just not right and you have to move and re-position yourself so that you can be comfortable and can function normally.
Nowadays, when I wanted to go to sleep, I would grunt and force myself to lay down and pretend to be okay having to shift my body to either side. My hubby bought me a pregnancy pillow, still it does not really serve its whole purpose. Huhu...
Counting, I still have 21 terrible weeks to go before I can sleep peacefully. Not mati okay. LOL
I...want...to....still....sleep.....on.....my.....back.......coz....Im....a....back....sleeper
Saturday, 1 August 2015
What we did differently this cycle that leads to our 5th Pregnancy
Today: 18 weeks 4 days
Before I forget, let me tell you
a story pasal DR ZAINAL, HOMEOPATHY. Actually I know him since I was a
little, my mum and aunty pernah bawa kami kesana pasal my aunty ada
masalah dalaman. I was around 10 yrs old that time, so his clinic has
been here so long sudah, well established. and dont be surprised, EVEN
doctors dari RIPAS came and see him, pasalnya doktor pun tau ubat drugs
clinic nda bagus untuk d makan for long term, pasalnya I ever saw this
one doctor from LEE CLINIC went there and ask for his consultation.
Mostly all the doctors d RIPAS pun kenal ia. EVEN almost all of my
colleagues pun pernah jumpa ia.
The interesting part
is......that, my sister in law, they got married in 2011 and she ever
got pregnant ONLY ONCE (atupun ectopic pregnancy, need to be terminated,
and now she's still trying). That one time ia pregnant was after she
ate ubat from DR ZAINAL. Amazing kan.... so after we heard about it, we
went there somewhere in 2013 and immediately we got pregnant also lapas
mkn ubat atu, but I miscarried, possibility pasal my husband punya sperm
chromosome inda bagus (how I knew pasal from his semen analysis result,
his morphology was only 3%, maksudnya spermnya cuma 3% sja yg normal,
selebihnya smua cacat). My husband did 4 times of semen analysis. The
latest result showed his morphology increased dramatically from 3% to
85% which I guess made the baby in my tummy possible. What are his
medicines? I will get to that later.
Alhamdulillah, I came to know this person, who
recommended Babu Masna. So I went and see her. She said my ovaries dua2
subur, but uterus a bit licak. Im not sure licak because of the bruises I
experienced masa beurut di salon or because of the clomids I took
(pasal I heard clomid can actually shed your uterus thin).
I started beurut arah babu masna bulan December 2014. and I started GAIA bulan January 2015.
December 2014 - peranakan licak and shifted ke kiri
January 2015 - pernakan licak and shifted ke kiri
February 2015 - we skipped, didnt do any massage
March
2015 - she said something amazing, "Eh, timbul sudah peranakan mu ani,
bila2 masa saja boleh betian ni, menunggu hari saja lagi"
SEKALINYA
banar.......4th April positive OPK, and 6th April 2015 I ovulated
conceived, and first got my faint faint line on PT on 16th April 2015
(10 days past ovulation)
We made love on 3rd April and 7th April. I guess sperm from the 3rd of April made its way into the egg (kalau ikutkan gender my baby now hehe).
Ok, below are the things that we did differently that made us this far into our pregnancy:
WIFE:
1. Started on GAIA - since January 2015
2. Started folic acid - since few months before we got married
3.
Met DR ZAINAL on the day my OPK was positive (4 April 2015) and I guess
his ubat yg buat my baby lakat in the first few weeks, coz ubat tu dpt
fix my hormonal problem.
4. Evening Primrose Oil (EPO) - consumed few days after my mensus
started, my first day of my last mensus was on 28 February 2015, so I
ate EPO early March 2015. Oh I forgot to tell you, on March I didnt get
my mensus, pasal I ovulate akhir in April 2015, on DAY 38. Selalunya I ovulate on day 16-20.
5. Doa dari indung, coz I got positive OPK two days after mymum doakan depan kaabah masa ia pegi umrah. If ada rezeki lebih, boleh pegi umrah otherwise can ask somebody to pray for you di sana. Alhamdulillah doa my mum kana naikkan.
6.
Started Zinc supplement from Guardian - 10 days before my positive OPK. I
guess it helped me with the egg releasing. Consumed zinc until end of
first trimester because zinc helps to increase progesterone level and
helps in building the right DNA.
7. Beurut arah babu Masna in March 2015.
8.
Did not exercise eventho I am obese. Ppl esp doctor always said, pls
lose weight otherwise you wont be able to get pregnant, I am a living
proof that you can get pregnant even if you are overweight, slightly
obese or morbidly obese. In terms of makanan, I ate as usual.
HUBBY:
1. I made him eat Zinc supplement from Guardian also, to increase his sperm's quality and quantity.
2.
Obvious change - he started JOGGING since January 2015 coz according to
him, JOGGING can increase his sperm MOTILITY. (activeness) coz before
his motility was just at the borderline, 60% so maybe his sperm time atu
couldnt make it to the egg. So I guess after he started jogging, his
sperm then became active and can swim faster. That's his logic. Ahaha...
But Alhamdulillah, one factor that contributes to our current pregnancy
3. Every morning he will drink milo with honey. He stopped drinking his coffee and tea, coke and pepsi during our TTC period.
4.
And I made him ejaculate every 2-3 days. Otherwise his sperm wont be as
fresh. I dont want old sperm to enter my body. Old sperms means slow
swimmers, or none, bad quality of chromosomes and will be of no use, coz
even if I got pregnant from the old sperm, I will face another
miscarriage.
Wish you good luck. May Allah bless you with lots of beautiful children. Aamiin....
Additional Note:
I have a friend who ate EPO before she conceived. Her main reason was mainly to beautify her skin, alhamdulillah she got pregnant soon after that. So I wanted to give EPO a try !
I ate EPO, if I remember correctly, from cycle day 7 to 16 and I stopped. Because I heard that you should not be on EPO after ovulation. Right about the same cycle I started eating EPO, I got pregnant, and sticks till now, 20weeks+ ^_^ give it a try !
Wednesday, 29 July 2015
18 weeks 1 day PREGNANT
Hi little M,
How are you in mommy's tummy?
Feeling comfy enough?
You sure did, coz we saw you stretched your legs straight 2days ago when we did another ultrasound at CY Lim Clinic. Hehe...
You also share the same habit with you Babah - head scratching. LOL...
You bounced, you moved, you waved, oh my....
Everytime we did ultrasound you seemed to notice and showed us your kind of performance and entertainment. Even the doctor said "macam2 gayanya baby ani" ahaha....
OHHHH and you sleep like mommy ! with one hand up near the face. How sweet...
You also seemed to know when the ultrasound session is about to finish, is when you started falling asleep...
My sweetheart, Mommy and Babah cannot wait to see you...
Please grow well...eat well...play well...sleep well...
Please know that you will get tons and tons of love when you arrive.
Later Mommy will drink lots of milk, so you can dance under the milk rain. Haha..
Love you baby...
Mommy and Babah are so blessed by your presence.
Fursisters wiki and mika are waiting for you too....They can't wait to look after you...
Be strong and be well...
xoxo
How are you in mommy's tummy?
Feeling comfy enough?
You sure did, coz we saw you stretched your legs straight 2days ago when we did another ultrasound at CY Lim Clinic. Hehe...
You also share the same habit with you Babah - head scratching. LOL...
You bounced, you moved, you waved, oh my....
Everytime we did ultrasound you seemed to notice and showed us your kind of performance and entertainment. Even the doctor said "macam2 gayanya baby ani" ahaha....
OHHHH and you sleep like mommy ! with one hand up near the face. How sweet...
You also seemed to know when the ultrasound session is about to finish, is when you started falling asleep...
My sweetheart, Mommy and Babah cannot wait to see you...
Please grow well...eat well...play well...sleep well...
Please know that you will get tons and tons of love when you arrive.
Later Mommy will drink lots of milk, so you can dance under the milk rain. Haha..
Love you baby...
Mommy and Babah are so blessed by your presence.
Fursisters wiki and mika are waiting for you too....They can't wait to look after you...
Be strong and be well...
xoxo
