Date: 16 Feb 2018
Week 31 Day 5
Well, if you're wondering, haritu pegi buat scan at Dr Ding @ Yayasan, and we found out we are going to have a BOY. Alhamdulillah...sepasang. hopefully everything goes well nanti. aamiin.
Malas kan type panjang2. Let me summarise semuanya lah.
Second GTT : passed
blood pressure : sentiasa cantik
weight gain : around 9kg sudah
thyroid hormone : under control
current craving : chocolate hazelnut yg paling BASAR. can finish those in a matter of second
this time around, my belly is huuuuge...hopefully this time baby basar sikit, unlike mayra haritu lahir only 2.65kg. I cant wait to have this baby in my arms and start berpantang. so that I can start apply keraja lagi after this, inda ku nyanyat jadi surirumah =D
Mayra Nadya
Haekal Mikael
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Friday, 16 February 2018
Wednesday, 29 November 2017
Anatomy / Anomaly scan @ Gynae RIPAS on 28 Nov 2017
29 Nov 2017
20 weeks 3 days
Yesterday, we were so happy to get up from bed, because we were so keen to know the gender of this baby, and to get information from the ultrasound technician about how well our baby is.
We arrived @ RIPAS at around 8.15am.
We waited more than an hour before my name was called.
I thought I would be seeing this kind, middle aged malay woman who used to always scan my tummy.
Instead I met this chinese lady yg quite snobbish 😅 sombong sulnya huhu... I dont get to ask her name tho... mind you, not all chinese are like that ah...the chinese dietitian I met yesterday was an angel 😇 love her to bits...and Dr Alice from Endocrine Unit is also a bless. They are lovely people, glad to have them around ! 😉
Ok, so I cakap lah at this lady, I said nicely "kalau dapat, minta tolong check kan gender ya"
well, it's GOVERNMENT CLINIC y'allllllll....what do you expect...
you have to request to get them going....
otherwise they wont do that for you...
then she said "only if I can see"
ok sure, no hal...
it took her around 1 minute before she turned the screen for me to have a peek.
and she said "right now I cannot see the gender"
"it's okay lah" i said, and continue saying "how about the baby? are all the organs well developed?"
"that one also i cannot see. as you can see here, it's too blurry"
oh....and i kept quiet.
and she continued "we'll see how it is on the next scan"
ohh......okay
so I got up and left the room, disappointed.
we went there for an ultrasound, hoping to hear some news...but...
then lapas atu have to wait again another hour for consultation with the doctor.
that time mood sudah down berabis...
oh by the way, my weight kemarin dropped sikit, and blood pressure was 106/66
bila doctor panggil masuk, she asked me to lie down to check my tummy, and she asked "how's the ultrasound?"
I said to her "she asked me to wait for the next scan coz she couldnt see it clearly"
doctor cakap "maybe you asked about the gender? maybe it's still too early"
so i replied "yes i did ask her about gender, that one I dont mind lah. but I also asked her about the organs of my baby, and all she could say was - still blurry"
doctor seemed surprised and said "i thought i saw a statement just now" so there she was, reading the screen again.
the statement says something like this "brain chamber seems normal. all organs seem ok, dont see any defect"
and i was like....tediam skajap
I THOUGHT THAT CHINESE LADY SAID TO ME "ALL IS STILL BLURRY"
ani okay tia? normal tia? why didnt she say that to my face? all she had to say was "still blurry"
sasak ku...huhu...
i guess my BP kemarin atu naik kali pasal i kept on thinking about it sampai ani...
if she can make a statement like that to inform the doctor, she could have said the same thing to me....
is this the standard procedure kah? letting the doctors know tapi diam2 arah patient... I DONT GET IT
buat ultrasound pn inda sampai 5 minit. i know la banyak patient di luar. sigh...
I remember dulu masa pregnant with mayra, 16-18 weeks sudah nampak pakai machine Dr Ding di yayasan, Dr Ding cakap 60% girl. 40% boy
then 18-20 weeks lagi buat scan di CY Lim clinic, 80% girl, 20% boy kata Dr Emy.
yang ani, 20 weeks guna machine hospital kerajaan, still cannot see anything...rubbish lah, baby that time was stretching his/her leg....i saw it....mana ada bekatup... (sorry emo sikit !)
and trust me...these are not the only reasons I got frustrated kemarin...
20 weeks 3 days
Yesterday, we were so happy to get up from bed, because we were so keen to know the gender of this baby, and to get information from the ultrasound technician about how well our baby is.
We arrived @ RIPAS at around 8.15am.
We waited more than an hour before my name was called.
I thought I would be seeing this kind, middle aged malay woman who used to always scan my tummy.
Instead I met this chinese lady yg quite snobbish 😅 sombong sulnya huhu... I dont get to ask her name tho... mind you, not all chinese are like that ah...the chinese dietitian I met yesterday was an angel 😇 love her to bits...and Dr Alice from Endocrine Unit is also a bless. They are lovely people, glad to have them around ! 😉
Ok, so I cakap lah at this lady, I said nicely "kalau dapat, minta tolong check kan gender ya"
well, it's GOVERNMENT CLINIC y'allllllll....what do you expect...
you have to request to get them going....
otherwise they wont do that for you...
then she said "only if I can see"
ok sure, no hal...
it took her around 1 minute before she turned the screen for me to have a peek.
and she said "right now I cannot see the gender"
"it's okay lah" i said, and continue saying "how about the baby? are all the organs well developed?"
"that one also i cannot see. as you can see here, it's too blurry"
oh....and i kept quiet.
and she continued "we'll see how it is on the next scan"
ohh......okay
so I got up and left the room, disappointed.
we went there for an ultrasound, hoping to hear some news...but...
then lapas atu have to wait again another hour for consultation with the doctor.
that time mood sudah down berabis...
oh by the way, my weight kemarin dropped sikit, and blood pressure was 106/66
bila doctor panggil masuk, she asked me to lie down to check my tummy, and she asked "how's the ultrasound?"
I said to her "she asked me to wait for the next scan coz she couldnt see it clearly"
doctor cakap "maybe you asked about the gender? maybe it's still too early"
so i replied "yes i did ask her about gender, that one I dont mind lah. but I also asked her about the organs of my baby, and all she could say was - still blurry"
doctor seemed surprised and said "i thought i saw a statement just now" so there she was, reading the screen again.
the statement says something like this "brain chamber seems normal. all organs seem ok, dont see any defect"
and i was like....tediam skajap
I THOUGHT THAT CHINESE LADY SAID TO ME "ALL IS STILL BLURRY"
ani okay tia? normal tia? why didnt she say that to my face? all she had to say was "still blurry"
sasak ku...huhu...
i guess my BP kemarin atu naik kali pasal i kept on thinking about it sampai ani...
if she can make a statement like that to inform the doctor, she could have said the same thing to me....
is this the standard procedure kah? letting the doctors know tapi diam2 arah patient... I DONT GET IT
buat ultrasound pn inda sampai 5 minit. i know la banyak patient di luar. sigh...
I remember dulu masa pregnant with mayra, 16-18 weeks sudah nampak pakai machine Dr Ding di yayasan, Dr Ding cakap 60% girl. 40% boy
then 18-20 weeks lagi buat scan di CY Lim clinic, 80% girl, 20% boy kata Dr Emy.
yang ani, 20 weeks guna machine hospital kerajaan, still cannot see anything...rubbish lah, baby that time was stretching his/her leg....i saw it....mana ada bekatup... (sorry emo sikit !)
and trust me...these are not the only reasons I got frustrated kemarin...
Saturday, 17 September 2016
Have I gotten back my period after baby?
NO. It's been 9 months. NO, still waiting for my period..... ugh!
Doctor cakap, usually 7 months ada sudah mensus, but whyyyy...huhu
Doctor cakap, usually 7 months ada sudah mensus, but whyyyy...huhu
Wednesday, 20 July 2016
Maidless
I guess one of the reasons why I got all fcuked up just now is that, I am sooooo soooo tired physically and mentally (GET YOURSELF READY, TTCIANS!!!). Imagine, antar ambil baby from daycare, pagi begagas, tengah hari bagi susu (bukannya sekajap ni) and taking my lunch and still begagas, then petang at 4.20pm sudah chow dari office. Everytime, has to think about baby supaya inda lupa mengambil. So basically, I cannot focus on my work. Selalu pikir pasal baby. I wonder if my husband also feel the same way? nah...i guess he's fine....bukannya ia yang antar ambil. pfftt...there I go again. haha
Mana lagi bila baby demam, I have to take leaves jua. That day, I remember, baby demam lepas vaccine, then deman selesma and batuk, then baik, then another selesma and batuk, all in all ada jua kan dekat sebulan baby inda masuk daycare, and I have to take my leaves to look after her. This time also always kelahi sama hubby, pasal it's always ME yang bekarih bejarih. Why dont ia ambil cuti jua bebagi2 lah, luckily my job ani FLEXIBLE. Luckily !!!!!!
Imagine kalau the company I am in ani strict. Balik pukul 5, pukul 4.20pm sudah jalan. Anak demam and have to take so many cuti. Ujung2 kana buang keraja pasal performance inda bagus. Huh... LUCKILY !!!!
Sometimes I think bisai plang jadi housewife, a stay at home mom, but nanti apa kata my family and his family. Masa ani PANGKAT dan HARTA kana pandang. Sorry to say. If you are nothing, you are nothing lah tu, kana layan macam sampah lah tu ah. Malu tu sorang2 kan mengakun kenal kan diri. LOL. This is sadly true. Tapi pikir2 if jadi stay at home mom, mcm mana kan survive di dunia yg segala2nya kan mau duit ani....kannnn....
I guess kalau ada amah, in sha Allah, teratur sikit kehidupan. That's what I think. Tapi bilanya beamah karang mcm2 hal timbul pun, paning jua mikirkan. Pulangtah masa ani payah kan mencari agent yang jujur. Tawakal lah saja. Mudahan tedapat agent dan amah yang jujur di masa akan datang.
Urang lain yang beamah, inda kan paham ni apa yg I go through. Keraja durang sanang sikit, beban pun inda banyak. Pasal ada helping hands. I need that. I need more handssssssssssssssss
Mana lagi bila baby demam, I have to take leaves jua. That day, I remember, baby demam lepas vaccine, then deman selesma and batuk, then baik, then another selesma and batuk, all in all ada jua kan dekat sebulan baby inda masuk daycare, and I have to take my leaves to look after her. This time also always kelahi sama hubby, pasal it's always ME yang bekarih bejarih. Why dont ia ambil cuti jua bebagi2 lah, luckily my job ani FLEXIBLE. Luckily !!!!!!
Imagine kalau the company I am in ani strict. Balik pukul 5, pukul 4.20pm sudah jalan. Anak demam and have to take so many cuti. Ujung2 kana buang keraja pasal performance inda bagus. Huh... LUCKILY !!!!
Sometimes I think bisai plang jadi housewife, a stay at home mom, but nanti apa kata my family and his family. Masa ani PANGKAT dan HARTA kana pandang. Sorry to say. If you are nothing, you are nothing lah tu, kana layan macam sampah lah tu ah. Malu tu sorang2 kan mengakun kenal kan diri. LOL. This is sadly true. Tapi pikir2 if jadi stay at home mom, mcm mana kan survive di dunia yg segala2nya kan mau duit ani....kannnn....
I guess kalau ada amah, in sha Allah, teratur sikit kehidupan. That's what I think. Tapi bilanya beamah karang mcm2 hal timbul pun, paning jua mikirkan. Pulangtah masa ani payah kan mencari agent yang jujur. Tawakal lah saja. Mudahan tedapat agent dan amah yang jujur di masa akan datang.
Urang lain yang beamah, inda kan paham ni apa yg I go through. Keraja durang sanang sikit, beban pun inda banyak. Pasal ada helping hands. I need that. I need more handssssssssssssssss
We have our UPS and DOWNS, semua couple jua macam atu kali......
I was so emotional just now. I talk craps about my husband does not mean he's a useless brat. As a provider, he is doing a great job, he spends most of his money for his family even if that means he has to ikat parut sometimes. heh. he helped me with laundry (tapi tunggu panuh 2 bakul baru di sasahnya ahaha), helped me with menjamur baju, buang sampah, looking after our 2 cats, and cuci barang pekakas baby. Gotta give him credits for that, once and for all ! Bye.
Long absence
Wow...my last post was on 9th May 2016.
A lot, A LOT of things have happened since my last post.
Hm...but I guess I wont be able to post everything here, since Im so busy with my baby.
When I think back, it was so good back then that I was able to sleep whenever and wherever I wanted, I could go out and hang out whenever and wherever I wished, I could browse through the internet in my office whenever I was free, and sometimes I stayed back and couldn't care less about the world. This kind of freedom, is what I miss the most after having a baby :( :(
Every morning during the weekdays, I have to make sure Mayra's bag is well prepared for her stay in daycare. #pause# Eh right now im not in the mood lah my husband is so annoying I cannot focus on what to say and what to type. Kancang rasa utak mendangar suaranya. I guess this is another side effect of giving birth? lol... I cant stand his voice and sometimes I hate to see him, like banci berabis !!! Kalau ku negative, memang ku buruk sangka that kami ani kana hantar "sihir pemisah"? lol malasku mikirin... eh bebahasa melayu tia haha oh well just go with it, sakit sudah kepalaku.
I visit the daycare 4 times a day. Haha... Pagi, tengah hari, petang and petang #smirk,
Right now, let it be that way, tho we have 2 car seats installed both in my car and my husband's car, I rather have my baby use mine. This is because sometimes my hubby (pemancing tegar tak takut dek buaya lemas kilat ribut mati) puts his boat engine di dalam bonet keretanya, and it smells like shit. I mean, I can smell the gasoline, but he can't. See... his nose sudah mengasi with that terrible smell. Am I gonna leave my baby sit there and inhale gas? Am I that crazy to let my baby suffocate? I AM A VERY PROTECTIVE MOTHER. selagi my husband sadar diri selagi atu I am willing to send her to daycare 4 times a day, ALTHOUGH I always fuss about it, coz ia senang lenang pergi kerja balik kerja inda payah tengok jam inda payah pikir pasal anak. PUIH. pls forgive my hormones. hormones selalu nda baik sebatah ada baby ani, lol.. mana kan inda cukup rehat. mana kan aku sorang ganya kan ingau perihal anak. makin karau utak masa ani so expect to see more cursings... urgh !
Atu weekdays lah, but bila weekends, when my hubby cuti, I expect to rest a bit and let him look after our baby. But, what did he do? He rather go out and go fishing. I know lah time puasa he didnt cast, and he even posted on facebook something like this "lama sudah nda mengail. few hours pun syukurtah - feeling stressed" - i was like...whaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...ttt
HELLO. ia sorang kali ganya stressed. aku ani inda? eh why all of a sudden it's all about my husband now? haha... oh nevermind, let me continue. yatah kan, I expect to have my rest after all I have done (9 months preggy, in labor got induced, failed induction kena buat c-section, sakitnya sampai ani terasa, beurut pun payah (i cannot go out sekati2 bila ada baby), crazy hormones, crying baby, sleepless nights, painful nipples, weight gain, and banyak lagi lah) pagi petang sibuk, malam pun sibuk, subuh jua baby bangunkan mau susu, laki2 mana paham ni, apa durang buat bila bini bangun menyusukan baby, either they are sleeping or check facebook. why not, kalau ingau kan hal ehwal bini, tanya lah, sangal kah inda, mau bantal kah inda, minta urut kah inda, sediakan minuman panas (since baby minum inda pandai beranti), make yourself useful lah! Wah marah nampak... but seriously, kalau a mother is so stressed out, esp while breastfeeding, hormone gila atu turun ke baby. Mau kamu baby kamu stress kan? Pemarah pemental pemberontak So whenever my hubby cari pasal, or make me stress when I breastfeed my baby, I keep on bezikir dalam hati "Astaghfirullah" banyak kali sampai tenang sikit, hoping that hormone gila inda banyak masuk ke badan baby. Ya Allah, if only kamu laki2 tepikir pasal ani........ You will make your wife happy especially tah masa menyusukan. Kenang jasa durang sanggup inda betidur jaga anak kamu. Guys pls if you are reading this !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gosh before melarat I better stop typing...meluahkan sikit saja ni nyaman sikit rasa kepala. nada tempah meluahkan so sini saja lah hehe BABAI
A lot, A LOT of things have happened since my last post.
Hm...but I guess I wont be able to post everything here, since Im so busy with my baby.
When I think back, it was so good back then that I was able to sleep whenever and wherever I wanted, I could go out and hang out whenever and wherever I wished, I could browse through the internet in my office whenever I was free, and sometimes I stayed back and couldn't care less about the world. This kind of freedom, is what I miss the most after having a baby :( :(
Every morning during the weekdays, I have to make sure Mayra's bag is well prepared for her stay in daycare. #pause# Eh right now im not in the mood lah my husband is so annoying I cannot focus on what to say and what to type. Kancang rasa utak mendangar suaranya. I guess this is another side effect of giving birth? lol... I cant stand his voice and sometimes I hate to see him, like banci berabis !!! Kalau ku negative, memang ku buruk sangka that kami ani kana hantar "sihir pemisah"? lol malasku mikirin... eh bebahasa melayu tia haha oh well just go with it, sakit sudah kepalaku.
I visit the daycare 4 times a day. Haha... Pagi, tengah hari, petang and petang #smirk,
Right now, let it be that way, tho we have 2 car seats installed both in my car and my husband's car, I rather have my baby use mine. This is because sometimes my hubby (pemancing tegar tak takut dek buaya lemas kilat ribut mati) puts his boat engine di dalam bonet keretanya, and it smells like shit. I mean, I can smell the gasoline, but he can't. See... his nose sudah mengasi with that terrible smell. Am I gonna leave my baby sit there and inhale gas? Am I that crazy to let my baby suffocate? I AM A VERY PROTECTIVE MOTHER. selagi my husband sadar diri selagi atu I am willing to send her to daycare 4 times a day, ALTHOUGH I always fuss about it, coz ia senang lenang pergi kerja balik kerja inda payah tengok jam inda payah pikir pasal anak. PUIH. pls forgive my hormones. hormones selalu nda baik sebatah ada baby ani, lol.. mana kan inda cukup rehat. mana kan aku sorang ganya kan ingau perihal anak. makin karau utak masa ani so expect to see more cursings... urgh !
Atu weekdays lah, but bila weekends, when my hubby cuti, I expect to rest a bit and let him look after our baby. But, what did he do? He rather go out and go fishing. I know lah time puasa he didnt cast, and he even posted on facebook something like this "lama sudah nda mengail. few hours pun syukurtah - feeling stressed" - i was like...whaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...ttt
HELLO. ia sorang kali ganya stressed. aku ani inda? eh why all of a sudden it's all about my husband now? haha... oh nevermind, let me continue. yatah kan, I expect to have my rest after all I have done (9 months preggy, in labor got induced, failed induction kena buat c-section, sakitnya sampai ani terasa, beurut pun payah (i cannot go out sekati2 bila ada baby), crazy hormones, crying baby, sleepless nights, painful nipples, weight gain, and banyak lagi lah) pagi petang sibuk, malam pun sibuk, subuh jua baby bangunkan mau susu, laki2 mana paham ni, apa durang buat bila bini bangun menyusukan baby, either they are sleeping or check facebook. why not, kalau ingau kan hal ehwal bini, tanya lah, sangal kah inda, mau bantal kah inda, minta urut kah inda, sediakan minuman panas (since baby minum inda pandai beranti), make yourself useful lah! Wah marah nampak... but seriously, kalau a mother is so stressed out, esp while breastfeeding, hormone gila atu turun ke baby. Mau kamu baby kamu stress kan? Pemarah pemental pemberontak So whenever my hubby cari pasal, or make me stress when I breastfeed my baby, I keep on bezikir dalam hati "Astaghfirullah" banyak kali sampai tenang sikit, hoping that hormone gila inda banyak masuk ke badan baby. Ya Allah, if only kamu laki2 tepikir pasal ani........ You will make your wife happy especially tah masa menyusukan. Kenang jasa durang sanggup inda betidur jaga anak kamu. Guys pls if you are reading this !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gosh before melarat I better stop typing...meluahkan sikit saja ni nyaman sikit rasa kepala. nada tempah meluahkan so sini saja lah hehe BABAI
