Andddddd my opk is getting darker !!! =D
The second line appeared pretty quickyly within 15seconds. Good sign !!! Please be positive, please be positive !!!
Mayra Nadya
Haekal Mikael
Friday 28 February 2014
Opk 28.02.2014
Today cycle day 19, masih belum ada tanda2 nak ovulate. Egg white cervical mucus pun takde !!!
On clomid. Follicle monitoring.
I have started taking clomid this cycle, itu pun selepas my cycle day was too long, I had to wait for 50++ days to get my mensus, first time nih....
Doktor gave me Norcutin untuk datangkan period, and to start clomid and decan on day 2-6. At the same time also she asked me to consume metformin, per day 1000mg to cope with my PCOS issue. Oh did I ever mention I had PCOS? Not surprising, sebab I ni obese =( Dulu I never thought I would have this, but well.......
So haritu Day 16, I went back to the clinic untuk jumpa doktor. I went there with my hubby, he's very supportive as usual. So doktor scan lah kan, and she didnt look happy. I was not happy either coz she didnt put extra TV infront of me. Sebab kalau pegi ke clinic Dr Ding kat Yayasan, boleh nampak apa yg doktor nampak sebab kat sana ada 2 TV utk tgk ultrasound monitor. Kat Lee Clinic only 1 lor..... So I asked her lah, byk ke follicles yg tumbuh? Dia diam jap. Then she told me "the biggest is only 1.1"
I was like, 1.1cm ??? why so small..... doktor kata for ovulation to occur it should be as big as 1.8cm (minimum!!). So I might be ovulating late, or none at all. Hopefully late lah ! So doktor asked me to increase my metformin dosage from 1000mg to 2000mg. Oh god...
To tell you honestly, makan2 ubat ni I dont like ! Esp drugs. I kalau demam pun I dont eat panadol. Habis2 pun I only drink 100 Plus, Air cincau dan pakai Detox Foot Patch. Memang mujarab lah ! I even taught my anak buah jgn biasakan makan panadol. It brings nooooo gooooddd.
Like it or not, I have to force my body to eat "drugs" - banyak plak tu...haish....takpe....kalau ini yg terbaik untuk mendatangkan buah hati kami, I am willing....eventhough have to go thorugh headaches moodswing nausea fatigue and so on... Good thing is, lately, my husband rajin sangat nak urut kepala dan badan kekekekekekekekeke
Oh oh....lupa nak kasitau, Doktor also asked me to start taking Progesterone pill on 28/02/2014 (today!). Nama ubat tu Duphaston. This will ensure my lining will be thick enough to support pregnancy. Amin amin Ya Allah janganlah engkau biarkan kami bersendirian tanpa Zuriat, engkau maha mendengar doa !! :(
Doktor gave me Norcutin untuk datangkan period, and to start clomid and decan on day 2-6. At the same time also she asked me to consume metformin, per day 1000mg to cope with my PCOS issue. Oh did I ever mention I had PCOS? Not surprising, sebab I ni obese =( Dulu I never thought I would have this, but well.......
So haritu Day 16, I went back to the clinic untuk jumpa doktor. I went there with my hubby, he's very supportive as usual. So doktor scan lah kan, and she didnt look happy. I was not happy either coz she didnt put extra TV infront of me. Sebab kalau pegi ke clinic Dr Ding kat Yayasan, boleh nampak apa yg doktor nampak sebab kat sana ada 2 TV utk tgk ultrasound monitor. Kat Lee Clinic only 1 lor..... So I asked her lah, byk ke follicles yg tumbuh? Dia diam jap. Then she told me "the biggest is only 1.1"
I was like, 1.1cm ??? why so small..... doktor kata for ovulation to occur it should be as big as 1.8cm (minimum!!). So I might be ovulating late, or none at all. Hopefully late lah ! So doktor asked me to increase my metformin dosage from 1000mg to 2000mg. Oh god...
To tell you honestly, makan2 ubat ni I dont like ! Esp drugs. I kalau demam pun I dont eat panadol. Habis2 pun I only drink 100 Plus, Air cincau dan pakai Detox Foot Patch. Memang mujarab lah ! I even taught my anak buah jgn biasakan makan panadol. It brings nooooo gooooddd.
Like it or not, I have to force my body to eat "drugs" - banyak plak tu...haish....takpe....kalau ini yg terbaik untuk mendatangkan buah hati kami, I am willing....eventhough have to go thorugh headaches moodswing nausea fatigue and so on... Good thing is, lately, my husband rajin sangat nak urut kepala dan badan kekekekekekekekeke
Oh oh....lupa nak kasitau, Doktor also asked me to start taking Progesterone pill on 28/02/2014 (today!). Nama ubat tu Duphaston. This will ensure my lining will be thick enough to support pregnancy. Amin amin Ya Allah janganlah engkau biarkan kami bersendirian tanpa Zuriat, engkau maha mendengar doa !! :(
Stop BBT
If you noticed, I no longer update my BBT result here. The reasons are:
1. My pattern looks funny
2. No consistency in taking temperature
3. The time taken was not consistent
4. Sometimes terbangun awal pagi and lupa ambik temperature
5. Malas
6. Temperature turun naik, maybe because I slept with my mouth open. So result is pretty inaccurate.
7. Started my BBT mid cycle. so kena start lg lah next cycle as early as day 1...
8. Disiplin kena ada kalau charting ni, still need to train myself to be persistent.
1. My pattern looks funny
2. No consistency in taking temperature
3. The time taken was not consistent
4. Sometimes terbangun awal pagi and lupa ambik temperature
5. Malas
6. Temperature turun naik, maybe because I slept with my mouth open. So result is pretty inaccurate.
7. Started my BBT mid cycle. so kena start lg lah next cycle as early as day 1...
8. Disiplin kena ada kalau charting ni, still need to train myself to be persistent.
Penyakit...
Before I hit my 30, I always thought I was a healthy lady.
When they check my blood pressure, it went to normal. They checked my sugar level, went back to normal.
Checked my cholesterol, most of the time it went well. Cuma ada one time tu when do blood withdrawal, my blood dried up pretty quickly inside the tube and the nurse said it was due to high level of cholesterol. Other than that, cholesterol level was always kept under the borderline.
When I get married, got pregnant and miscarried, that's the time when I was diagnosed with so many penyakit...antaranya:
-my mensus went whacky after my wedding. maybe this is due to "hormonal shock" (u know...husband punya chemical pun dh masuk dalam body)
-first pregnancy failed due to infection, group B something nama bacteria dia. this bacteria can cause miscarriage
-second pregnancy failed sebab low progesterone. hormone progesterone tak cukup utk tampung pregnancy
-third pregnancy was a chemical pregnancy, it means the implantation did happen, but it didn't stay for long
-fourth pregnancy failed due to so many reasons.
You know.....when a pregnancy happen, so many things inside our body also changed, especially the hormones. Setiap pregnancy, TSH (Thyroid Stimulating Hormone) ballooned up like crazy, sebab baby also needs the Thyroid Hormone to grow. Senang je kalau nak tau Thyroid Hormone si ibu cukup atau tak. By blood test, kalau TSH level dia tinggi, then maksudnya the brain pushed so hard to stimulate Thyroid production. Bila TSH tinggi, Thyroid Hormone is really low. Sebab tu kena stimulate lebih.
And this happened to all my pregnancies ! and I just knew this....
Normal range for TSH kalau nak conceive should be less than 1.0
After 4th miscarriage haritu, doctor checked my TSH level and it was pretty high, 6.0++ No wonder la gugur.... So kat situ, doktor suruh makan ubat Levothyroxine 25mg 1 tablet per day.
After one month, my TSH level dropped from 6++ to 5.25, Syukur.....atleast ubat tu effective
Now, my target is to get my TSH level below 1.0 and doktor kata kalau saya disahkan mengandung, I have to double my Levothyroxine dosage, kena makan 2pill sehari. Ok lah...sampai skarang pun belum lg ada khabar preggy pun....belum rezeki kan...
Oh ya, I was diagnosed to have Subclinical Hypothyroid. Maksudnya, simptom2 nak kena penyakit Hypothyroid dah ada..so kena ambil langkah awal untuk cegah. My TSH level was abnormal, T3 and T4 was in the normal range. Sebab tu masih boleh pregnant, but tak dpt nak sustain pregnancy :'(
When they check my blood pressure, it went to normal. They checked my sugar level, went back to normal.
Checked my cholesterol, most of the time it went well. Cuma ada one time tu when do blood withdrawal, my blood dried up pretty quickly inside the tube and the nurse said it was due to high level of cholesterol. Other than that, cholesterol level was always kept under the borderline.
When I get married, got pregnant and miscarried, that's the time when I was diagnosed with so many penyakit...antaranya:
-my mensus went whacky after my wedding. maybe this is due to "hormonal shock" (u know...husband punya chemical pun dh masuk dalam body)
-first pregnancy failed due to infection, group B something nama bacteria dia. this bacteria can cause miscarriage
-second pregnancy failed sebab low progesterone. hormone progesterone tak cukup utk tampung pregnancy
-third pregnancy was a chemical pregnancy, it means the implantation did happen, but it didn't stay for long
-fourth pregnancy failed due to so many reasons.
You know.....when a pregnancy happen, so many things inside our body also changed, especially the hormones. Setiap pregnancy, TSH (Thyroid Stimulating Hormone) ballooned up like crazy, sebab baby also needs the Thyroid Hormone to grow. Senang je kalau nak tau Thyroid Hormone si ibu cukup atau tak. By blood test, kalau TSH level dia tinggi, then maksudnya the brain pushed so hard to stimulate Thyroid production. Bila TSH tinggi, Thyroid Hormone is really low. Sebab tu kena stimulate lebih.
And this happened to all my pregnancies ! and I just knew this....
Normal range for TSH kalau nak conceive should be less than 1.0
After 4th miscarriage haritu, doctor checked my TSH level and it was pretty high, 6.0++ No wonder la gugur.... So kat situ, doktor suruh makan ubat Levothyroxine 25mg 1 tablet per day.
After one month, my TSH level dropped from 6++ to 5.25, Syukur.....atleast ubat tu effective
Now, my target is to get my TSH level below 1.0 and doktor kata kalau saya disahkan mengandung, I have to double my Levothyroxine dosage, kena makan 2pill sehari. Ok lah...sampai skarang pun belum lg ada khabar preggy pun....belum rezeki kan...
Oh ya, I was diagnosed to have Subclinical Hypothyroid. Maksudnya, simptom2 nak kena penyakit Hypothyroid dah ada..so kena ambil langkah awal untuk cegah. My TSH level was abnormal, T3 and T4 was in the normal range. Sebab tu masih boleh pregnant, but tak dpt nak sustain pregnancy :'(
Sunday 23 February 2014
Missing Pregnancy
I really miss being pregnant....i never had pregnancy above 7 weeks...all were lost below 7 weeks. I wonder how it's like to be 3 months, 4 months pregnant. I wonder how it feels to be able to carry a baby to full term. I wonder how it all feels :) :') ='(
Opk 23.02.2014
Hi all...
I just tested my opk (ovulation prediction kit), it's getting darker this morning. I am so nervous hopefully the clomid will help me ovulate and release more progesterone, and hope that the metformin will help my body to avoid any form of miscarriages...
I just tested my opk (ovulation prediction kit), it's getting darker this morning. I am so nervous hopefully the clomid will help me ovulate and release more progesterone, and hope that the metformin will help my body to avoid any form of miscarriages...
I read somewhere if the bbt falls down the line, you will ovulate within 12 to 36hours. I blame myhusband for fulfilling his hobby at these crucial hours rather than spending time with me making babies !!! Oh well.....
My first BBT
Hi all...
Ive just started tempting my basal body temperature (bbt) few days ago and noticed constant increment until today.
My temp shifted from a high to a dip low as you may see below. As usual, I google lah...and some say if you notice a fall in temperature before your ovulation, you are lucky to notice that's what your LH surge is causing. So to cover this doubt, it says when there's a fall in tempterarure before your ovulation, your LH surge can already be detected and you will ovulate within 24-36hours ! Howwwww???
Sorry I forgot to include that today is my cycle day 14, my first cycle with norcutin (to get my mensus), metformin (for PCOS), decan (i dont know what this is for) and clomid. We planned to do IUI this coming 24th Feb but due to several reasons, we cancelled it. So next appointment with doctor will be on 25th Feb to monitor my follicles.
If i were to ovulate before I see my doctor, then i will not be able to see how many follicles my ovaries will produce (or will i? I dont know...im new to this stuff)
From my readings at google, i will ovulate within 36hours, and myhusband will only be here with me after 40hours. I dont wanna miss our chances !!!
Saturday 22 February 2014
My Husband and I #rant#
Sigh....sometimes I wonder, bilalah Tuhan nak beri kitorang anak.....
Myhusband and I got married on July 2012.
My lil brother got married on Sept 2012 then 2months after her wife got pregnant
My friends got married few weeks and few months after me, got pregnant so easily
Husband punya kawan pun dah ramai wife drg pregnant. Her colleague recently also delivered a baby.
Seems like everyone didn't have to push extra effort to make babies.
Seems like the babies also love them, that's why senang sangat nak preggy huhu...
During the first year memang stress giler aaa...Pernah juga salahkan Tuhan (Astaghfirullah...) sebab tak turunkan rezeki zuriat. But I manage to slowly accept fate. Alhamdulillah sekarang dah tenang...
When I heard somebody gets pregnant, I can already smile and congratulated them :)
I now realize, things happen for a reason. Mungkin ada sebab kenapa Tuhan belum turunkan rezeki anak kat kami kot.. Walaupun takde rezeki anak, alhamdulillah rezeki yg lain dah mula masuk. Syukur Ya Allah !!
Atleast Tuhan pernah gak buat I preggy...4kali pulak tu !! but unfortunately all four tak lekat, nak buat macam mana :) but atleast I know that my husband memang tak pernah ada masalah about his swimmers. Masalahnya ada kat I =P :')
But for you baby, I will do anything within my reach, just to make your appearance into this world, a reality !!! No matter how expensive the treatments would be, no matter how painful my body will react, no matter how hard I will stay faithful and will consistently try to bring you into this world, I promise I wont give up! We promise we wont give up. Coz we do believe, sooner or later, it's just a matter of time, one fine day, you'll be here, with us...Baby love!!
Myhusband and I got married on July 2012.
My lil brother got married on Sept 2012 then 2months after her wife got pregnant
My friends got married few weeks and few months after me, got pregnant so easily
Husband punya kawan pun dah ramai wife drg pregnant. Her colleague recently also delivered a baby.
Seems like everyone didn't have to push extra effort to make babies.
Seems like the babies also love them, that's why senang sangat nak preggy huhu...
During the first year memang stress giler aaa...Pernah juga salahkan Tuhan (Astaghfirullah...) sebab tak turunkan rezeki zuriat. But I manage to slowly accept fate. Alhamdulillah sekarang dah tenang...
When I heard somebody gets pregnant, I can already smile and congratulated them :)
I now realize, things happen for a reason. Mungkin ada sebab kenapa Tuhan belum turunkan rezeki anak kat kami kot.. Walaupun takde rezeki anak, alhamdulillah rezeki yg lain dah mula masuk. Syukur Ya Allah !!
Atleast Tuhan pernah gak buat I preggy...4kali pulak tu !! but unfortunately all four tak lekat, nak buat macam mana :) but atleast I know that my husband memang tak pernah ada masalah about his swimmers. Masalahnya ada kat I =P :')
But for you baby, I will do anything within my reach, just to make your appearance into this world, a reality !!! No matter how expensive the treatments would be, no matter how painful my body will react, no matter how hard I will stay faithful and will consistently try to bring you into this world, I promise I wont give up! We promise we wont give up. Coz we do believe, sooner or later, it's just a matter of time, one fine day, you'll be here, with us...Baby love!!
Forcing myself to blog LOL
Hello to siapa2 yg TERRRRBACA this post...
I finally decided to create this blog in order to help others to refer to their fertility queries esp yg happen kat BRUNEI ! I rarely see Bruneians show their concerns about their journey on TTC in their blogs. Most of the time, when I am in need of answers, I would simply google BabyBump, BabyCentre, FertilityFriend and so on. I am a TTCian myself, been trying to get pregnant since our marriage in July 2012. I tried to look for more info on Bruneian REs / OBGyns and never seemed to get satisfied with the readings/articles. How sad !!! I tried to read on stories about Bruneians' experiences on fertility treatments such as IUI / IVF, but to no avail !!! :(
So I was thinking, someone should start blogging, as a TTCian. A Bruneian TTCian. Nothing more but for others to refer. We need more exposure on this kind of thing. I know some might feel embarrassed of not being able to get pregnant instantly after their wedding (I know that I am!!), but I hope I can express my thoughts, clear-cut diamond without having to worry of what others might have to say. Being a TTCian is already hard, whether people like this blog or not, I really hope people won't get offended by things which I am gonna and about to share. In fact, I also need a space to rant. So please excuse me =D no, pls excuse my hormones.
See ya in my next entries !
