4th June 2020
I had my second anxiety attack yesterday afternoon after sending the kids to their granny's house.
The first time I had it was when Mayra was still in my tummy.
It was so difficult to grasp for air. Difficult to get a full cycle of breathing and so difficult to get my body in control of my breathing.
I thought I would have died.
Luckily I am being given a second chance to still be here with the kids.
They make me put the nebulizer on. Things did not get better. In fact, it got worst.
The nurse told me to relax since the side effect of nebulizer is heart palpitation.
No more nebulizer for me in the future. It was so uncomfy.
They took my blood to check for my thyroid TSH level since it's been 2 years I stopped the medication. Result came back unsatisfactory so they are giving me levothyroxine and I have to eat that damxn pill for the rest of my life.
Nope, it's very unlikely that this shortness of breath have something to do with my thyroid problem.
Nevertheless, since I was prescribed earlier might as well I continue.
The doctor didnt recommend lung xray since my oxygen level is still fine (God knows how I struggled so hard to put oxygen into my body). They only gave me medicines to deal with my blocked nose.
Right now, my nasal passage is as clear as the sky. But still I find it hard to breathe sometimes.
I asked the nurse whether this is asthma. She said the doctor will be able to tell immediately if I had asthma, so right now that was not the case.
His diagnosis is that I am just stressed out. Yesterday my BP level went up tho this is seldom happening. I guess he's right....
So he referred me to the psychiatrist to join the counseling session to manage my stress.
See if things get well thereafter.
Till now...
Mayra Nadya
Haekal Mikael
Showing posts with label RIPAS. Show all posts
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Thursday, 4 June 2020
Tuesday, 3 April 2018
O&G Weekly Appointment 03 April 2018
38 weeks 2 days
Tuesday, 03 April 2018
Wow..it's been quite a while lol...
Just got back from the hospital. Mayra is now sleeping so mommy is eager to post updates coz I think the D-day is very near approaching.
Last week (37+2) I got admitted arah wad 32 due to suspected leakage of amniotic fluid since week 37. They monitor for 2 days - no further leakage so I got discharged on Thursday (37+4) dengan syarat mesti habiskan antibiotic for 7days.
This morning around 7.30am I felt mcm ada something keluar from bawah and I suspected mucus plug - after doing all the image googling. Not surprised tho coz since last night I've been experiencing severe pain arah my lower back, and what feels like menstrual cramp (karau rasanya). Yes it was painful but still bearable, tho not comfy and hard to find a position to be able to sleep.
So...met Dr Azmah tadi around 10.30am, she checked my cervix and seems like baby masih belom ready to pop out, coz it's still high up there she actually had to saluk dalam2 (omg sakit). She said there's still no progress of baby coming out anytime soon and there's no reason to induce since sudah ada scar from my previous C-section. Unless if I experience cramping, ada bloody show, aing ketuban pecah then only I have to rush to the labor room and they will do elective czer (if I recall correctly lah). As of now let the nature does its work and hopefully this time around I will be able to deliver normallyy lah...AAMIIN...
Actually panjang lagi kan type 😅 but malas. next time. Let's see if I can upload gambar mucus plug using this fon. Kan update pakai pc, slow banar.
Update : nop...cannot upload photos/videos via iphone 🙄 android's way better 👍🏼 sigh
Another update: 12.50pm - some more mucus plug can be seen arah mangkuk tandas. no fresh blood yet.
Tuesday, 03 April 2018
Wow..it's been quite a while lol...
Just got back from the hospital. Mayra is now sleeping so mommy is eager to post updates coz I think the D-day is very near approaching.
Last week (37+2) I got admitted arah wad 32 due to suspected leakage of amniotic fluid since week 37. They monitor for 2 days - no further leakage so I got discharged on Thursday (37+4) dengan syarat mesti habiskan antibiotic for 7days.
This morning around 7.30am I felt mcm ada something keluar from bawah and I suspected mucus plug - after doing all the image googling. Not surprised tho coz since last night I've been experiencing severe pain arah my lower back, and what feels like menstrual cramp (karau rasanya). Yes it was painful but still bearable, tho not comfy and hard to find a position to be able to sleep.
So...met Dr Azmah tadi around 10.30am, she checked my cervix and seems like baby masih belom ready to pop out, coz it's still high up there she actually had to saluk dalam2 (omg sakit). She said there's still no progress of baby coming out anytime soon and there's no reason to induce since sudah ada scar from my previous C-section. Unless if I experience cramping, ada bloody show, aing ketuban pecah then only I have to rush to the labor room and they will do elective czer (if I recall correctly lah). As of now let the nature does its work and hopefully this time around I will be able to deliver normallyy lah...AAMIIN...
Actually panjang lagi kan type 😅 but malas. next time. Let's see if I can upload gambar mucus plug using this fon. Kan update pakai pc, slow banar.
Update : nop...cannot upload photos/videos via iphone 🙄 android's way better 👍🏼 sigh
Another update: 12.50pm - some more mucus plug can be seen arah mangkuk tandas. no fresh blood yet.
Wednesday, 29 November 2017
Anatomy / Anomaly scan @ Gynae RIPAS on 28 Nov 2017
29 Nov 2017
20 weeks 3 days
Yesterday, we were so happy to get up from bed, because we were so keen to know the gender of this baby, and to get information from the ultrasound technician about how well our baby is.
We arrived @ RIPAS at around 8.15am.
We waited more than an hour before my name was called.
I thought I would be seeing this kind, middle aged malay woman who used to always scan my tummy.
Instead I met this chinese lady yg quite snobbish 😅 sombong sulnya huhu... I dont get to ask her name tho... mind you, not all chinese are like that ah...the chinese dietitian I met yesterday was an angel 😇 love her to bits...and Dr Alice from Endocrine Unit is also a bless. They are lovely people, glad to have them around ! 😉
Ok, so I cakap lah at this lady, I said nicely "kalau dapat, minta tolong check kan gender ya"
well, it's GOVERNMENT CLINIC y'allllllll....what do you expect...
you have to request to get them going....
otherwise they wont do that for you...
then she said "only if I can see"
ok sure, no hal...
it took her around 1 minute before she turned the screen for me to have a peek.
and she said "right now I cannot see the gender"
"it's okay lah" i said, and continue saying "how about the baby? are all the organs well developed?"
"that one also i cannot see. as you can see here, it's too blurry"
oh....and i kept quiet.
and she continued "we'll see how it is on the next scan"
ohh......okay
so I got up and left the room, disappointed.
we went there for an ultrasound, hoping to hear some news...but...
then lapas atu have to wait again another hour for consultation with the doctor.
that time mood sudah down berabis...
oh by the way, my weight kemarin dropped sikit, and blood pressure was 106/66
bila doctor panggil masuk, she asked me to lie down to check my tummy, and she asked "how's the ultrasound?"
I said to her "she asked me to wait for the next scan coz she couldnt see it clearly"
doctor cakap "maybe you asked about the gender? maybe it's still too early"
so i replied "yes i did ask her about gender, that one I dont mind lah. but I also asked her about the organs of my baby, and all she could say was - still blurry"
doctor seemed surprised and said "i thought i saw a statement just now" so there she was, reading the screen again.
the statement says something like this "brain chamber seems normal. all organs seem ok, dont see any defect"
and i was like....tediam skajap
I THOUGHT THAT CHINESE LADY SAID TO ME "ALL IS STILL BLURRY"
ani okay tia? normal tia? why didnt she say that to my face? all she had to say was "still blurry"
sasak ku...huhu...
i guess my BP kemarin atu naik kali pasal i kept on thinking about it sampai ani...
if she can make a statement like that to inform the doctor, she could have said the same thing to me....
is this the standard procedure kah? letting the doctors know tapi diam2 arah patient... I DONT GET IT
buat ultrasound pn inda sampai 5 minit. i know la banyak patient di luar. sigh...
I remember dulu masa pregnant with mayra, 16-18 weeks sudah nampak pakai machine Dr Ding di yayasan, Dr Ding cakap 60% girl. 40% boy
then 18-20 weeks lagi buat scan di CY Lim clinic, 80% girl, 20% boy kata Dr Emy.
yang ani, 20 weeks guna machine hospital kerajaan, still cannot see anything...rubbish lah, baby that time was stretching his/her leg....i saw it....mana ada bekatup... (sorry emo sikit !)
and trust me...these are not the only reasons I got frustrated kemarin...
20 weeks 3 days
Yesterday, we were so happy to get up from bed, because we were so keen to know the gender of this baby, and to get information from the ultrasound technician about how well our baby is.
We arrived @ RIPAS at around 8.15am.
We waited more than an hour before my name was called.
I thought I would be seeing this kind, middle aged malay woman who used to always scan my tummy.
Instead I met this chinese lady yg quite snobbish 😅 sombong sulnya huhu... I dont get to ask her name tho... mind you, not all chinese are like that ah...the chinese dietitian I met yesterday was an angel 😇 love her to bits...and Dr Alice from Endocrine Unit is also a bless. They are lovely people, glad to have them around ! 😉
Ok, so I cakap lah at this lady, I said nicely "kalau dapat, minta tolong check kan gender ya"
well, it's GOVERNMENT CLINIC y'allllllll....what do you expect...
you have to request to get them going....
otherwise they wont do that for you...
then she said "only if I can see"
ok sure, no hal...
it took her around 1 minute before she turned the screen for me to have a peek.
and she said "right now I cannot see the gender"
"it's okay lah" i said, and continue saying "how about the baby? are all the organs well developed?"
"that one also i cannot see. as you can see here, it's too blurry"
oh....and i kept quiet.
and she continued "we'll see how it is on the next scan"
ohh......okay
so I got up and left the room, disappointed.
we went there for an ultrasound, hoping to hear some news...but...
then lapas atu have to wait again another hour for consultation with the doctor.
that time mood sudah down berabis...
oh by the way, my weight kemarin dropped sikit, and blood pressure was 106/66
bila doctor panggil masuk, she asked me to lie down to check my tummy, and she asked "how's the ultrasound?"
I said to her "she asked me to wait for the next scan coz she couldnt see it clearly"
doctor cakap "maybe you asked about the gender? maybe it's still too early"
so i replied "yes i did ask her about gender, that one I dont mind lah. but I also asked her about the organs of my baby, and all she could say was - still blurry"
doctor seemed surprised and said "i thought i saw a statement just now" so there she was, reading the screen again.
the statement says something like this "brain chamber seems normal. all organs seem ok, dont see any defect"
and i was like....tediam skajap
I THOUGHT THAT CHINESE LADY SAID TO ME "ALL IS STILL BLURRY"
ani okay tia? normal tia? why didnt she say that to my face? all she had to say was "still blurry"
sasak ku...huhu...
i guess my BP kemarin atu naik kali pasal i kept on thinking about it sampai ani...
if she can make a statement like that to inform the doctor, she could have said the same thing to me....
is this the standard procedure kah? letting the doctors know tapi diam2 arah patient... I DONT GET IT
buat ultrasound pn inda sampai 5 minit. i know la banyak patient di luar. sigh...
I remember dulu masa pregnant with mayra, 16-18 weeks sudah nampak pakai machine Dr Ding di yayasan, Dr Ding cakap 60% girl. 40% boy
then 18-20 weeks lagi buat scan di CY Lim clinic, 80% girl, 20% boy kata Dr Emy.
yang ani, 20 weeks guna machine hospital kerajaan, still cannot see anything...rubbish lah, baby that time was stretching his/her leg....i saw it....mana ada bekatup... (sorry emo sikit !)
and trust me...these are not the only reasons I got frustrated kemarin...
Endocrine Appointment @ RIPAS on 27-Nov-2017
29 Nov 2017
20 weeks 3 days
When I was 2months+ pregnant, my TSH level was around 7++
To have a very healthy pregnancy, the level should be below 2
and 2 days ago, the doctor was quite happy to see my TSH blood test result
it was around 1.3 if im not mistaken.
Nevertheless, she increased the dosage from 50mcg to 75mcg,
because according to her, as the pregnancy progresses,
the baby requires more thyroid hormone from the mother.
Well, not a problem...as long as my baby is healthy and happy,
anything for you my dear...
20 weeks 3 days
When I was 2months+ pregnant, my TSH level was around 7++
To have a very healthy pregnancy, the level should be below 2
and 2 days ago, the doctor was quite happy to see my TSH blood test result
it was around 1.3 if im not mistaken.
Nevertheless, she increased the dosage from 50mcg to 75mcg,
because according to her, as the pregnancy progresses,
the baby requires more thyroid hormone from the mother.
Well, not a problem...as long as my baby is healthy and happy,
anything for you my dear...
Tuesday, 24 October 2017
Today's Appointment at RIPAS Hospital (24 Oct 2017)
Tuesday, 24 Oct 2017
15 Weeks 2 Days
Today's appointment is just doing routine check up.
I kept on losing weight, hard to gain weight eh...mcm mayra dulu😕
Blood pressure was fine, 104/61
Checked baby's heartbeat using a fetal doppler, no sound. no heartbeat😰
Panic sekajap...
Doctor said it's pretty normal tho, since my belly has too much fat lol...
Fetal doppler will only be able to detect heartbeat around week 14-16
Sometimes 12-14 weeks, esp kalau skinny girls lah..
So she decided to do an ultrasound just to make sure baby was okay.
and Alhamdulillah, my lil bunny active garak2 hihi....I guess pasal tadi I ate chocolate before jumpa doctor.
So far, everything went well, thanks to Allah....
next meeting will be on 31 Oct 2017, for anomaly scan. or anatomy scan. not sure if they are similar tho. written on paper was anatomy, but the doctor said we're gonna be doing anomaly #shrug# 💁
15 Weeks 2 Days
Today's appointment is just doing routine check up.
I kept on losing weight, hard to gain weight eh...mcm mayra dulu😕
Blood pressure was fine, 104/61
Checked baby's heartbeat using a fetal doppler, no sound. no heartbeat😰
Panic sekajap...
Doctor said it's pretty normal tho, since my belly has too much fat lol...
Fetal doppler will only be able to detect heartbeat around week 14-16
Sometimes 12-14 weeks, esp kalau skinny girls lah..
So she decided to do an ultrasound just to make sure baby was okay.
and Alhamdulillah, my lil bunny active garak2 hihi....I guess pasal tadi I ate chocolate before jumpa doctor.
So far, everything went well, thanks to Allah....
next meeting will be on 31 Oct 2017, for anomaly scan. or anatomy scan. not sure if they are similar tho. written on paper was anatomy, but the doctor said we're gonna be doing anomaly #shrug# 💁
Sunday, 22 October 2017
Our NT Scan did not go well as planned ... not happy with the doctor
Today is Sunday, 22 Oct 2017
15 weeks 0 days
NT Scan is actually done to detect whether baby has any chromosomal abnormality.
It is ONLY accurate if done in between week 11 and 14 gestational age, if done after week 14 it wont be of no use.
During my first pregnancy haritu, we did this test 3 times.
The first one was at RIPAS, tho it was a very brief check, sekajap saja di check nya. atupun she did that after we requested *pff* otherwise she would have not done it.
Inda puas hati, so the second test was done arah Dr Ding Yayasan, machine quality wise was superb ! So tarang. Clean and clear. His explanation pun patut di puji lah. Worth the money walaupun mahal sikit, but memang sangat2 berbaloi.... let me recall ah, if not mistaken he charged us in between $80-120
Third test, we did arah CY Lim Clinic di Gadong. tho machine nya inda berapa tarang, but we really like the way this one particular doctor membari explanation, very friendly lagi we were so comfortable being with her and she was never karit to give us the printouts banyak2. was charged around $50-75, sorry inda berapa ingat. oh ya, the doctor's name was Dr Emy, but unfortunately she is no longer there, kana replace by Dr Faridah. She's okay.
So.........
This current pregnancy, we did arah CY Lim clinic sebab kan save cost *😋*
We went there on Tuesday night, 10th October 2017, kalau ikut perkiraan I was about 13 weeks and 2 days pregnant.
Side note: by right kalau ikutkan the first day of my last mensus, I was supposed to be 14 weeks and 2 days pulang hari atu, but our two earlier scans measured a week behind, so we assume it to be 13 weeks and 2 days lah ah...
Went there, Dr Faridah was on leave for a month, so I had to choose this Chinese female doctor lah im not sure what was her name, lupa sudah 😅
The moment she saw us, Mayra time atu was on the weighing scale, so she just stood there and observed. She asked me, how old was Mayra , so I told her lah coming 1 yr 10 months. She asked my husband, what was her weight. Husband said 9 point something. She said "haaaa??? she's underweight !" while pointing to Mayra. Dalam hatiku, there goes again.... *sigh* ....Mayra is a very picky eater, very fussy, memilih makanan, and she eats too slow...pokok pangkalnya, anak ku ani inda suka makan but she loves to play. Very active lil girl.
Kalau Dr Joel, a Paediatrician (dont mind the spelling pls?) from JPMC he would not and will never say something like that to small kids apatah lagi to the parents. He actually prefers small babies, asalkan active katanya. and he would not suggest any medications or supplements.
But this chinese doctor from CY Lim, sigh... sudah tah serious mukanya mcm kan makan orang 😝, then she asked me to give Mayra supplement mcm Appelin and apakah lagi satu atu I cant remember.
Sorry doctor, not that Im against those ubat2an, but I rather not have my kids mkn synthetic drugs unless kalau banar2 perlu. actually before pregnant dulu I rather opt for homeopathy punya ubat2an for my kids but nak buat mcm mana kan... Dr Zainal sudah passed away 😭
She said to give Mayra Appelin until she reaches 10kg, after that can stop lah. DUI ALANG2.... she was around 9.6kg-9.8kg at that time, then 10kg stop?? I actually had the urge to laugh at her face but of course, I slowly rejected her offer. I said to her, I came to visit her bukan pasal mayra, but it's about my baby in my belly, wanna do NT scan. sigh.... (oh by the way, today Mayra punya weight 10.1kg sudah)
Cut story short, pasal ngaleh sudah typing, baby was measured at 14 weeks 3 days !!! a week and a day ahead !!! woahhh....baby is growing up so fast....slalunya kalau scan ia slalu a week behind.
So the doctor refused to do NT scan pasal it's above the recommended gestational age, instead she only did routine and anatomy test saja, mcm measure kepala, badan, check to make sure all the organs are there, making sure baby is all well and normal.
But one thing yg we dont like about this doctor, she acts as if she knows everything and that she's always right, seolah2 patient ani should have no say. sorry, but no sorry...
We were so hampa when she said this...
"Actually NT Scan should only be done on week 11 and that's about it"
Then I said to her "But doctor, isnt NT scan can be carried out from week 11 to week 14"
she said "no no no, only around week 11 you should do NT scan. if now you want to do NT scan, only through blood test"
paning ku....
even DR DING ever said to me, NT Scan can be done as long as it does not pass the 14th week mark.
this indian doctor from RIPAS also said the same thing, from 11 weeks to 13 weeks 6 days only ujarnya.
we didn't know baby would be of that gestational age, because we were pretty confident baby time atu only around 13 weeks 2 days 😔
apa tah salahnya, check kan tah saja dulu......apa jua 3 days late (since baby measured 14 weeks 3 days) and since we were there and we were paying...but ia mcm inda mau buat...sedih ku eh....
never knew there's a blood test for NT tho....never heard about it...and it costs around $500ish...government clinic pun ada buat, she also said she can make a referral letter, kataku no need lah...menyamal ku sudah...
so now...we tawakkal saja lah, we can only pray that our baby is all well and he/she will lead a very healthy life nanti...
sorry ayat beterabur...it's already late, and I'm so sleepy.
will post another time...
15 weeks 0 days
NT Scan is actually done to detect whether baby has any chromosomal abnormality.
It is ONLY accurate if done in between week 11 and 14 gestational age, if done after week 14 it wont be of no use.
During my first pregnancy haritu, we did this test 3 times.
The first one was at RIPAS, tho it was a very brief check, sekajap saja di check nya. atupun she did that after we requested *pff* otherwise she would have not done it.
Inda puas hati, so the second test was done arah Dr Ding Yayasan, machine quality wise was superb ! So tarang. Clean and clear. His explanation pun patut di puji lah. Worth the money walaupun mahal sikit, but memang sangat2 berbaloi.... let me recall ah, if not mistaken he charged us in between $80-120
Third test, we did arah CY Lim Clinic di Gadong. tho machine nya inda berapa tarang, but we really like the way this one particular doctor membari explanation, very friendly lagi we were so comfortable being with her and she was never karit to give us the printouts banyak2. was charged around $50-75, sorry inda berapa ingat. oh ya, the doctor's name was Dr Emy, but unfortunately she is no longer there, kana replace by Dr Faridah. She's okay.
So.........
This current pregnancy, we did arah CY Lim clinic sebab kan save cost *😋*
We went there on Tuesday night, 10th October 2017, kalau ikut perkiraan I was about 13 weeks and 2 days pregnant.
Side note: by right kalau ikutkan the first day of my last mensus, I was supposed to be 14 weeks and 2 days pulang hari atu, but our two earlier scans measured a week behind, so we assume it to be 13 weeks and 2 days lah ah...
Went there, Dr Faridah was on leave for a month, so I had to choose this Chinese female doctor lah im not sure what was her name, lupa sudah 😅
The moment she saw us, Mayra time atu was on the weighing scale, so she just stood there and observed. She asked me, how old was Mayra , so I told her lah coming 1 yr 10 months. She asked my husband, what was her weight. Husband said 9 point something. She said "haaaa??? she's underweight !" while pointing to Mayra. Dalam hatiku, there goes again.... *sigh* ....Mayra is a very picky eater, very fussy, memilih makanan, and she eats too slow...pokok pangkalnya, anak ku ani inda suka makan but she loves to play. Very active lil girl.
Kalau Dr Joel, a Paediatrician (dont mind the spelling pls?) from JPMC he would not and will never say something like that to small kids apatah lagi to the parents. He actually prefers small babies, asalkan active katanya. and he would not suggest any medications or supplements.
But this chinese doctor from CY Lim, sigh... sudah tah serious mukanya mcm kan makan orang 😝, then she asked me to give Mayra supplement mcm Appelin and apakah lagi satu atu I cant remember.
Sorry doctor, not that Im against those ubat2an, but I rather not have my kids mkn synthetic drugs unless kalau banar2 perlu. actually before pregnant dulu I rather opt for homeopathy punya ubat2an for my kids but nak buat mcm mana kan... Dr Zainal sudah passed away 😭
She said to give Mayra Appelin until she reaches 10kg, after that can stop lah. DUI ALANG2.... she was around 9.6kg-9.8kg at that time, then 10kg stop?? I actually had the urge to laugh at her face but of course, I slowly rejected her offer. I said to her, I came to visit her bukan pasal mayra, but it's about my baby in my belly, wanna do NT scan. sigh.... (oh by the way, today Mayra punya weight 10.1kg sudah)
Cut story short, pasal ngaleh sudah typing, baby was measured at 14 weeks 3 days !!! a week and a day ahead !!! woahhh....baby is growing up so fast....slalunya kalau scan ia slalu a week behind.
So the doctor refused to do NT scan pasal it's above the recommended gestational age, instead she only did routine and anatomy test saja, mcm measure kepala, badan, check to make sure all the organs are there, making sure baby is all well and normal.
But one thing yg we dont like about this doctor, she acts as if she knows everything and that she's always right, seolah2 patient ani should have no say. sorry, but no sorry...
We were so hampa when she said this...
"Actually NT Scan should only be done on week 11 and that's about it"
Then I said to her "But doctor, isnt NT scan can be carried out from week 11 to week 14"
she said "no no no, only around week 11 you should do NT scan. if now you want to do NT scan, only through blood test"
paning ku....
even DR DING ever said to me, NT Scan can be done as long as it does not pass the 14th week mark.
this indian doctor from RIPAS also said the same thing, from 11 weeks to 13 weeks 6 days only ujarnya.
we didn't know baby would be of that gestational age, because we were pretty confident baby time atu only around 13 weeks 2 days 😔
apa tah salahnya, check kan tah saja dulu......apa jua 3 days late (since baby measured 14 weeks 3 days) and since we were there and we were paying...but ia mcm inda mau buat...sedih ku eh....
never knew there's a blood test for NT tho....never heard about it...and it costs around $500ish...government clinic pun ada buat, she also said she can make a referral letter, kataku no need lah...menyamal ku sudah...
so now...we tawakkal saja lah, we can only pray that our baby is all well and he/she will lead a very healthy life nanti...
sorry ayat beterabur...it's already late, and I'm so sleepy.
will post another time...
