Long absence

Wow...my last post was on 9th May 2016.
A lot, A LOT of things have happened since my last post.
Hm...but I guess I wont be able to post everything here, since Im so busy with my baby.

When I think back, it was so good back then that I was able to sleep whenever and wherever I wanted, I could go out and hang out whenever and wherever I wished, I could browse through the internet in my office whenever I was free, and sometimes I stayed back and couldn't care less about the world. This kind of freedom, is what I miss the most after having a baby :(  :(

Every morning during the weekdays, I have to make sure Mayra's bag is well prepared for her stay in daycare. #pause# Eh right now im not in the mood lah my husband is so annoying I cannot focus on what to say and what to type. Kancang rasa utak mendangar suaranya. I guess this is another side effect of giving birth? lol... I cant stand his voice and sometimes I hate to see him, like banci berabis !!! Kalau ku negative, memang ku buruk sangka that kami ani kana hantar "sihir pemisah"? lol malasku mikirin... eh bebahasa melayu tia haha oh well just go with it, sakit sudah kepalaku.

I visit the daycare 4 times a day. Haha... Pagi, tengah hari, petang and petang #smirk,
Right now, let it be that way, tho we have 2 car seats installed both in my car and my husband's car, I rather have my baby use mine. This is because sometimes my hubby (pemancing tegar tak takut dek buaya lemas kilat ribut mati) puts his boat engine di dalam bonet keretanya, and it smells like shit. I mean, I can smell the gasoline, but he can't. See... his nose sudah mengasi with that terrible smell. Am I gonna leave my baby sit there and inhale gas? Am I that crazy to let my baby suffocate? I AM A VERY PROTECTIVE MOTHER. selagi my husband sadar diri selagi atu I am willing to send her to daycare 4 times a day, ALTHOUGH I always fuss about it, coz ia senang lenang pergi kerja balik kerja inda payah tengok jam inda payah pikir pasal anak. PUIH. pls forgive my hormones. hormones selalu nda baik sebatah ada baby ani, lol.. mana kan inda cukup rehat. mana kan aku sorang ganya kan ingau perihal anak. makin karau utak masa ani so expect to see more cursings... urgh !

Atu weekdays lah, but bila weekends, when my hubby cuti, I expect to rest a bit and let him look after our baby. But, what did he do? He rather go out and go fishing. I know lah time puasa he didnt cast, and he even posted on facebook something like this "lama sudah nda mengail. few hours pun syukurtah - feeling stressed" - i was like...whaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...ttt

HELLO. ia sorang kali ganya stressed. aku ani inda? eh why all of a sudden it's all about my husband now? haha... oh nevermind, let me continue. yatah kan, I expect to have my rest after all I have done (9 months preggy, in labor got induced, failed induction kena buat c-section, sakitnya sampai ani terasa, beurut pun payah (i cannot go out sekati2 bila ada baby), crazy hormones, crying baby, sleepless nights, painful nipples, weight gain, and banyak lagi lah) pagi petang sibuk, malam pun sibuk, subuh jua baby bangunkan mau susu, laki2 mana paham ni, apa durang buat bila bini bangun menyusukan baby, either they are sleeping or check facebook. why not, kalau ingau kan hal ehwal bini, tanya lah, sangal kah inda, mau bantal kah inda, minta urut kah inda, sediakan minuman panas (since baby minum inda pandai beranti), make yourself useful lah! Wah marah nampak... but seriously, kalau a mother is so stressed out, esp while breastfeeding, hormone gila atu turun ke baby. Mau kamu baby kamu stress kan? Pemarah pemental pemberontak So whenever my hubby cari pasal, or make me stress when I breastfeed my baby, I keep on bezikir dalam hati "Astaghfirullah" banyak kali sampai tenang sikit, hoping that hormone gila inda banyak masuk ke badan baby. Ya Allah, if only kamu laki2 tepikir pasal ani........ You will make your wife happy especially tah masa menyusukan. Kenang jasa durang sanggup inda betidur jaga anak kamu. Guys pls if you are reading this !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh before melarat I better stop typing...meluahkan sikit saja ni nyaman sikit rasa kepala. nada tempah meluahkan so sini saja lah hehe BABAI