4th June 2020
I had my second anxiety attack yesterday afternoon after sending the kids to their granny's house.
The first time I had it was when Mayra was still in my tummy.
It was so difficult to grasp for air. Difficult to get a full cycle of breathing and so difficult to get my body in control of my breathing.
I thought I would have died.
Luckily I am being given a second chance to still be here with the kids.
They make me put the nebulizer on. Things did not get better. In fact, it got worst.
The nurse told me to relax since the side effect of nebulizer is heart palpitation.
No more nebulizer for me in the future. It was so uncomfy.
They took my blood to check for my thyroid TSH level since it's been 2 years I stopped the medication. Result came back unsatisfactory so they are giving me levothyroxine and I have to eat that damxn pill for the rest of my life.
Nope, it's very unlikely that this shortness of breath have something to do with my thyroid problem.
Nevertheless, since I was prescribed earlier might as well I continue.
The doctor didnt recommend lung xray since my oxygen level is still fine (God knows how I struggled so hard to put oxygen into my body). They only gave me medicines to deal with my blocked nose.
Right now, my nasal passage is as clear as the sky. But still I find it hard to breathe sometimes.
I asked the nurse whether this is asthma. She said the doctor will be able to tell immediately if I had asthma, so right now that was not the case.
His diagnosis is that I am just stressed out. Yesterday my BP level went up tho this is seldom happening. I guess he's right....
So he referred me to the psychiatrist to join the counseling session to manage my stress.
See if things get well thereafter.
Till now...
Mayra Nadya
Haekal Mikael
Thursday 4 June 2020
Friday 8 November 2019
My Lil Bunnies
Last post was more than a year ago *teehee*
my lil son is now 1y7m and mayra is 3y11m
not planning to add new members in the family now due to some reasons. one is being hating the idea of having to start the whole procedure of doing another czer all over again. seriously.
my lil son is now 1y7m and mayra is 3y11m
not planning to add new members in the family now due to some reasons. one is being hating the idea of having to start the whole procedure of doing another czer all over again. seriously.
Sunday 6 May 2018
Baby Number Two is here... #latepost 😅
Welcome to the world !
Name : Muhd. Haekal Mikael 😘
Gender : Boy 👶🏻
DOB : 11 April 2018
Gestational Age: 39+3
Time : around 1.20pm I guess 😅
Method : C - section 😒
Weight : 3.5kg 😱
Height : 50cm
having one child is tough. taking care of two, is a struggle ahaha...anyhow, will find time to post the stories. enjoying every bit of moment with these two blessings 😇
Name : Muhd. Haekal Mikael 😘
Gender : Boy 👶🏻
DOB : 11 April 2018
Gestational Age: 39+3
Time : around 1.20pm I guess 😅
Method : C - section 😒
Weight : 3.5kg 😱
Height : 50cm
having one child is tough. taking care of two, is a struggle ahaha...anyhow, will find time to post the stories. enjoying every bit of moment with these two blessings 😇
Tuesday 3 April 2018
Second child - Third Trimester
Unlike Mayra dulu, this pregnancy is a lil bit different esp in the Third Trimester.
First and Second Trimester symptoms more or less the same lah; such as craving for sweets, food aversion especially chicken and those yg kuat baunya, kulit kusam, not into make up, dont really care how I look, and the weight I put on pun sikit saja.
BUT,
start trimester ketiga, I gained more and more weight (I only gained 6kg in total masa beranakkan Mayra) - now that Im 38+2, I gained 12.5kg sudah, my tummy looks huge (unlike dulu ppl said my parut damit masa betiankan Mayra).
Last ultrasound made was on Thursday (37+4) baby weigh around 3.3kg, compared to (35+2) cuma around 2.8kg - doctor seemed ok with it plang, katanya per week normal growth is around 200g.
People also said the second pregnancy your tummy will look huge pasal the abdominal muscle sudah stretched out during the first pregnancy.
ALHAMDULILLAH,
pregnancy this time nada ada experience Carpal Tunnel and Shortness of Breath (time Mayra dlu these 2 are the most annoying part to endure)
TAPI,
pregnancy kali ani, especially di hujung2 trimester, paling annoying is when I have the strong urge to pee whenever Im up bediri, not to mention when I walk. They said banyak2 bawa bejalan so that bukaan cervix lakas buka and sanang beranak, how to achieve that when after taking few steps sudah ada rasa kan ke jamban? 😅 sigh... and when I pee keluarnya sikit saja. like in 10 minutes atu I have done 2-4 of toilet visit. malas rasanya kan pakai seluar, have to have a small towel ready. ada rasa kan pakai pampers jua coz it's really tiring bah...
and now ada issue lg with back pain, lower part. and start sudah rasa braxton hicks (false contraction) - ani jua I never pernah rasa masa betiankan Mayra. this time around, pregnancy is a bit of a struggle lah pasal sakit plus you have a toddler to look after, and lately jua Mayra slalu minta kana angkat 😭😭😭 mami always said mami sakit parut, but I guess she just wanted more attention kali before her lil bro arrives. redho....
First and Second Trimester symptoms more or less the same lah; such as craving for sweets, food aversion especially chicken and those yg kuat baunya, kulit kusam, not into make up, dont really care how I look, and the weight I put on pun sikit saja.
BUT,
start trimester ketiga, I gained more and more weight (I only gained 6kg in total masa beranakkan Mayra) - now that Im 38+2, I gained 12.5kg sudah, my tummy looks huge (unlike dulu ppl said my parut damit masa betiankan Mayra).
Last ultrasound made was on Thursday (37+4) baby weigh around 3.3kg, compared to (35+2) cuma around 2.8kg - doctor seemed ok with it plang, katanya per week normal growth is around 200g.
People also said the second pregnancy your tummy will look huge pasal the abdominal muscle sudah stretched out during the first pregnancy.
ALHAMDULILLAH,
pregnancy this time nada ada experience Carpal Tunnel and Shortness of Breath (time Mayra dlu these 2 are the most annoying part to endure)
TAPI,
pregnancy kali ani, especially di hujung2 trimester, paling annoying is when I have the strong urge to pee whenever Im up bediri, not to mention when I walk. They said banyak2 bawa bejalan so that bukaan cervix lakas buka and sanang beranak, how to achieve that when after taking few steps sudah ada rasa kan ke jamban? 😅 sigh... and when I pee keluarnya sikit saja. like in 10 minutes atu I have done 2-4 of toilet visit. malas rasanya kan pakai seluar, have to have a small towel ready. ada rasa kan pakai pampers jua coz it's really tiring bah...
and now ada issue lg with back pain, lower part. and start sudah rasa braxton hicks (false contraction) - ani jua I never pernah rasa masa betiankan Mayra. this time around, pregnancy is a bit of a struggle lah pasal sakit plus you have a toddler to look after, and lately jua Mayra slalu minta kana angkat 😭😭😭 mami always said mami sakit parut, but I guess she just wanted more attention kali before her lil bro arrives. redho....
O&G Weekly Appointment 03 April 2018
38 weeks 2 days
Tuesday, 03 April 2018
Wow..it's been quite a while lol...
Just got back from the hospital. Mayra is now sleeping so mommy is eager to post updates coz I think the D-day is very near approaching.
Last week (37+2) I got admitted arah wad 32 due to suspected leakage of amniotic fluid since week 37. They monitor for 2 days - no further leakage so I got discharged on Thursday (37+4) dengan syarat mesti habiskan antibiotic for 7days.
This morning around 7.30am I felt mcm ada something keluar from bawah and I suspected mucus plug - after doing all the image googling. Not surprised tho coz since last night I've been experiencing severe pain arah my lower back, and what feels like menstrual cramp (karau rasanya). Yes it was painful but still bearable, tho not comfy and hard to find a position to be able to sleep.
So...met Dr Azmah tadi around 10.30am, she checked my cervix and seems like baby masih belom ready to pop out, coz it's still high up there she actually had to saluk dalam2 (omg sakit). She said there's still no progress of baby coming out anytime soon and there's no reason to induce since sudah ada scar from my previous C-section. Unless if I experience cramping, ada bloody show, aing ketuban pecah then only I have to rush to the labor room and they will do elective czer (if I recall correctly lah). As of now let the nature does its work and hopefully this time around I will be able to deliver normallyy lah...AAMIIN...
Actually panjang lagi kan type 😅 but malas. next time. Let's see if I can upload gambar mucus plug using this fon. Kan update pakai pc, slow banar.
Update : nop...cannot upload photos/videos via iphone 🙄 android's way better 👍🏼 sigh
Another update: 12.50pm - some more mucus plug can be seen arah mangkuk tandas. no fresh blood yet.
Tuesday, 03 April 2018
Wow..it's been quite a while lol...
Just got back from the hospital. Mayra is now sleeping so mommy is eager to post updates coz I think the D-day is very near approaching.
Last week (37+2) I got admitted arah wad 32 due to suspected leakage of amniotic fluid since week 37. They monitor for 2 days - no further leakage so I got discharged on Thursday (37+4) dengan syarat mesti habiskan antibiotic for 7days.
This morning around 7.30am I felt mcm ada something keluar from bawah and I suspected mucus plug - after doing all the image googling. Not surprised tho coz since last night I've been experiencing severe pain arah my lower back, and what feels like menstrual cramp (karau rasanya). Yes it was painful but still bearable, tho not comfy and hard to find a position to be able to sleep.
So...met Dr Azmah tadi around 10.30am, she checked my cervix and seems like baby masih belom ready to pop out, coz it's still high up there she actually had to saluk dalam2 (omg sakit). She said there's still no progress of baby coming out anytime soon and there's no reason to induce since sudah ada scar from my previous C-section. Unless if I experience cramping, ada bloody show, aing ketuban pecah then only I have to rush to the labor room and they will do elective czer (if I recall correctly lah). As of now let the nature does its work and hopefully this time around I will be able to deliver normallyy lah...AAMIIN...
Actually panjang lagi kan type 😅 but malas. next time. Let's see if I can upload gambar mucus plug using this fon. Kan update pakai pc, slow banar.
Update : nop...cannot upload photos/videos via iphone 🙄 android's way better 👍🏼 sigh
Another update: 12.50pm - some more mucus plug can be seen arah mangkuk tandas. no fresh blood yet.
Friday 16 February 2018
Long Absent - not too busy - but TIRED
Date: 16 Feb 2018
Week 31 Day 5
Well, if you're wondering, haritu pegi buat scan at Dr Ding @ Yayasan, and we found out we are going to have a BOY. Alhamdulillah...sepasang. hopefully everything goes well nanti. aamiin.
Malas kan type panjang2. Let me summarise semuanya lah.
Second GTT : passed
blood pressure : sentiasa cantik
weight gain : around 9kg sudah
thyroid hormone : under control
current craving : chocolate hazelnut yg paling BASAR. can finish those in a matter of second
this time around, my belly is huuuuge...hopefully this time baby basar sikit, unlike mayra haritu lahir only 2.65kg. I cant wait to have this baby in my arms and start berpantang. so that I can start apply keraja lagi after this, inda ku nyanyat jadi surirumah =D
Week 31 Day 5
Well, if you're wondering, haritu pegi buat scan at Dr Ding @ Yayasan, and we found out we are going to have a BOY. Alhamdulillah...sepasang. hopefully everything goes well nanti. aamiin.
Malas kan type panjang2. Let me summarise semuanya lah.
Second GTT : passed
blood pressure : sentiasa cantik
weight gain : around 9kg sudah
thyroid hormone : under control
current craving : chocolate hazelnut yg paling BASAR. can finish those in a matter of second
this time around, my belly is huuuuge...hopefully this time baby basar sikit, unlike mayra haritu lahir only 2.65kg. I cant wait to have this baby in my arms and start berpantang. so that I can start apply keraja lagi after this, inda ku nyanyat jadi surirumah =D
Wednesday 29 November 2017
Anatomy / Anomaly scan @ Gynae RIPAS on 28 Nov 2017
29 Nov 2017
20 weeks 3 days
Yesterday, we were so happy to get up from bed, because we were so keen to know the gender of this baby, and to get information from the ultrasound technician about how well our baby is.
We arrived @ RIPAS at around 8.15am.
We waited more than an hour before my name was called.
I thought I would be seeing this kind, middle aged malay woman who used to always scan my tummy.
Instead I met this chinese lady yg quite snobbish 😅 sombong sulnya huhu... I dont get to ask her name tho... mind you, not all chinese are like that ah...the chinese dietitian I met yesterday was an angel 😇 love her to bits...and Dr Alice from Endocrine Unit is also a bless. They are lovely people, glad to have them around ! 😉
Ok, so I cakap lah at this lady, I said nicely "kalau dapat, minta tolong check kan gender ya"
well, it's GOVERNMENT CLINIC y'allllllll....what do you expect...
you have to request to get them going....
otherwise they wont do that for you...
then she said "only if I can see"
ok sure, no hal...
it took her around 1 minute before she turned the screen for me to have a peek.
and she said "right now I cannot see the gender"
"it's okay lah" i said, and continue saying "how about the baby? are all the organs well developed?"
"that one also i cannot see. as you can see here, it's too blurry"
oh....and i kept quiet.
and she continued "we'll see how it is on the next scan"
ohh......okay
so I got up and left the room, disappointed.
we went there for an ultrasound, hoping to hear some news...but...
then lapas atu have to wait again another hour for consultation with the doctor.
that time mood sudah down berabis...
oh by the way, my weight kemarin dropped sikit, and blood pressure was 106/66
bila doctor panggil masuk, she asked me to lie down to check my tummy, and she asked "how's the ultrasound?"
I said to her "she asked me to wait for the next scan coz she couldnt see it clearly"
doctor cakap "maybe you asked about the gender? maybe it's still too early"
so i replied "yes i did ask her about gender, that one I dont mind lah. but I also asked her about the organs of my baby, and all she could say was - still blurry"
doctor seemed surprised and said "i thought i saw a statement just now" so there she was, reading the screen again.
the statement says something like this "brain chamber seems normal. all organs seem ok, dont see any defect"
and i was like....tediam skajap
I THOUGHT THAT CHINESE LADY SAID TO ME "ALL IS STILL BLURRY"
ani okay tia? normal tia? why didnt she say that to my face? all she had to say was "still blurry"
sasak ku...huhu...
i guess my BP kemarin atu naik kali pasal i kept on thinking about it sampai ani...
if she can make a statement like that to inform the doctor, she could have said the same thing to me....
is this the standard procedure kah? letting the doctors know tapi diam2 arah patient... I DONT GET IT
buat ultrasound pn inda sampai 5 minit. i know la banyak patient di luar. sigh...
I remember dulu masa pregnant with mayra, 16-18 weeks sudah nampak pakai machine Dr Ding di yayasan, Dr Ding cakap 60% girl. 40% boy
then 18-20 weeks lagi buat scan di CY Lim clinic, 80% girl, 20% boy kata Dr Emy.
yang ani, 20 weeks guna machine hospital kerajaan, still cannot see anything...rubbish lah, baby that time was stretching his/her leg....i saw it....mana ada bekatup... (sorry emo sikit !)
and trust me...these are not the only reasons I got frustrated kemarin...
20 weeks 3 days
Yesterday, we were so happy to get up from bed, because we were so keen to know the gender of this baby, and to get information from the ultrasound technician about how well our baby is.
We arrived @ RIPAS at around 8.15am.
We waited more than an hour before my name was called.
I thought I would be seeing this kind, middle aged malay woman who used to always scan my tummy.
Instead I met this chinese lady yg quite snobbish 😅 sombong sulnya huhu... I dont get to ask her name tho... mind you, not all chinese are like that ah...the chinese dietitian I met yesterday was an angel 😇 love her to bits...and Dr Alice from Endocrine Unit is also a bless. They are lovely people, glad to have them around ! 😉
Ok, so I cakap lah at this lady, I said nicely "kalau dapat, minta tolong check kan gender ya"
well, it's GOVERNMENT CLINIC y'allllllll....what do you expect...
you have to request to get them going....
otherwise they wont do that for you...
then she said "only if I can see"
ok sure, no hal...
it took her around 1 minute before she turned the screen for me to have a peek.
and she said "right now I cannot see the gender"
"it's okay lah" i said, and continue saying "how about the baby? are all the organs well developed?"
"that one also i cannot see. as you can see here, it's too blurry"
oh....and i kept quiet.
and she continued "we'll see how it is on the next scan"
ohh......okay
so I got up and left the room, disappointed.
we went there for an ultrasound, hoping to hear some news...but...
then lapas atu have to wait again another hour for consultation with the doctor.
that time mood sudah down berabis...
oh by the way, my weight kemarin dropped sikit, and blood pressure was 106/66
bila doctor panggil masuk, she asked me to lie down to check my tummy, and she asked "how's the ultrasound?"
I said to her "she asked me to wait for the next scan coz she couldnt see it clearly"
doctor cakap "maybe you asked about the gender? maybe it's still too early"
so i replied "yes i did ask her about gender, that one I dont mind lah. but I also asked her about the organs of my baby, and all she could say was - still blurry"
doctor seemed surprised and said "i thought i saw a statement just now" so there she was, reading the screen again.
the statement says something like this "brain chamber seems normal. all organs seem ok, dont see any defect"
and i was like....tediam skajap
I THOUGHT THAT CHINESE LADY SAID TO ME "ALL IS STILL BLURRY"
ani okay tia? normal tia? why didnt she say that to my face? all she had to say was "still blurry"
sasak ku...huhu...
i guess my BP kemarin atu naik kali pasal i kept on thinking about it sampai ani...
if she can make a statement like that to inform the doctor, she could have said the same thing to me....
is this the standard procedure kah? letting the doctors know tapi diam2 arah patient... I DONT GET IT
buat ultrasound pn inda sampai 5 minit. i know la banyak patient di luar. sigh...
I remember dulu masa pregnant with mayra, 16-18 weeks sudah nampak pakai machine Dr Ding di yayasan, Dr Ding cakap 60% girl. 40% boy
then 18-20 weeks lagi buat scan di CY Lim clinic, 80% girl, 20% boy kata Dr Emy.
yang ani, 20 weeks guna machine hospital kerajaan, still cannot see anything...rubbish lah, baby that time was stretching his/her leg....i saw it....mana ada bekatup... (sorry emo sikit !)
and trust me...these are not the only reasons I got frustrated kemarin...
Endocrine Appointment @ RIPAS on 27-Nov-2017
29 Nov 2017
20 weeks 3 days
When I was 2months+ pregnant, my TSH level was around 7++
To have a very healthy pregnancy, the level should be below 2
and 2 days ago, the doctor was quite happy to see my TSH blood test result
it was around 1.3 if im not mistaken.
Nevertheless, she increased the dosage from 50mcg to 75mcg,
because according to her, as the pregnancy progresses,
the baby requires more thyroid hormone from the mother.
Well, not a problem...as long as my baby is healthy and happy,
anything for you my dear...
20 weeks 3 days
When I was 2months+ pregnant, my TSH level was around 7++
To have a very healthy pregnancy, the level should be below 2
and 2 days ago, the doctor was quite happy to see my TSH blood test result
it was around 1.3 if im not mistaken.
Nevertheless, she increased the dosage from 50mcg to 75mcg,
because according to her, as the pregnancy progresses,
the baby requires more thyroid hormone from the mother.
Well, not a problem...as long as my baby is healthy and happy,
anything for you my dear...
Tuesday 24 October 2017
How Soon Can You Find Out Baby's Sex?
Question
How soon can I find out my baby's sex? I know you can sometimes tell by using ultrasound, but are there any other reliable methods that are used?
Answer
This is one of the most common questions I receive from parents-to-be. Most patients undergo an ultrasound at around 18-20 weeks (about four and a half to five months). Normally, at this stage of pregnancy we can determine the baby's sex, but not always. The position of the baby during the ultrasound is the most important aspect in our ability to tell the baby's sex, andthere's no way to influence that. For obvious reasons, it's usually easier to see if the baby is a boy.
For more info, click here.
Today's Appointment at RIPAS Hospital (24 Oct 2017)
Tuesday, 24 Oct 2017
15 Weeks 2 Days
Today's appointment is just doing routine check up.
I kept on losing weight, hard to gain weight eh...mcm mayra dulu😕
Blood pressure was fine, 104/61
Checked baby's heartbeat using a fetal doppler, no sound. no heartbeat😰
Panic sekajap...
Doctor said it's pretty normal tho, since my belly has too much fat lol...
Fetal doppler will only be able to detect heartbeat around week 14-16
Sometimes 12-14 weeks, esp kalau skinny girls lah..
So she decided to do an ultrasound just to make sure baby was okay.
and Alhamdulillah, my lil bunny active garak2 hihi....I guess pasal tadi I ate chocolate before jumpa doctor.
So far, everything went well, thanks to Allah....
next meeting will be on 31 Oct 2017, for anomaly scan. or anatomy scan. not sure if they are similar tho. written on paper was anatomy, but the doctor said we're gonna be doing anomaly #shrug# 💁
15 Weeks 2 Days
Today's appointment is just doing routine check up.
I kept on losing weight, hard to gain weight eh...mcm mayra dulu😕
Blood pressure was fine, 104/61
Checked baby's heartbeat using a fetal doppler, no sound. no heartbeat😰
Panic sekajap...
Doctor said it's pretty normal tho, since my belly has too much fat lol...
Fetal doppler will only be able to detect heartbeat around week 14-16
Sometimes 12-14 weeks, esp kalau skinny girls lah..
So she decided to do an ultrasound just to make sure baby was okay.
and Alhamdulillah, my lil bunny active garak2 hihi....I guess pasal tadi I ate chocolate before jumpa doctor.
So far, everything went well, thanks to Allah....
next meeting will be on 31 Oct 2017, for anomaly scan. or anatomy scan. not sure if they are similar tho. written on paper was anatomy, but the doctor said we're gonna be doing anomaly #shrug# 💁
Sunday 22 October 2017
Anxiety
22 Oct 2017
15 weeks 0 days
15 weeks 0 days
Our NT Scan did not go well as planned ... not happy with the doctor
Today is Sunday, 22 Oct 2017
15 weeks 0 days
NT Scan is actually done to detect whether baby has any chromosomal abnormality.
It is ONLY accurate if done in between week 11 and 14 gestational age, if done after week 14 it wont be of no use.
During my first pregnancy haritu, we did this test 3 times.
The first one was at RIPAS, tho it was a very brief check, sekajap saja di check nya. atupun she did that after we requested *pff* otherwise she would have not done it.
Inda puas hati, so the second test was done arah Dr Ding Yayasan, machine quality wise was superb ! So tarang. Clean and clear. His explanation pun patut di puji lah. Worth the money walaupun mahal sikit, but memang sangat2 berbaloi.... let me recall ah, if not mistaken he charged us in between $80-120
Third test, we did arah CY Lim Clinic di Gadong. tho machine nya inda berapa tarang, but we really like the way this one particular doctor membari explanation, very friendly lagi we were so comfortable being with her and she was never karit to give us the printouts banyak2. was charged around $50-75, sorry inda berapa ingat. oh ya, the doctor's name was Dr Emy, but unfortunately she is no longer there, kana replace by Dr Faridah. She's okay.
So.........
This current pregnancy, we did arah CY Lim clinic sebab kan save cost *😋*
We went there on Tuesday night, 10th October 2017, kalau ikut perkiraan I was about 13 weeks and 2 days pregnant.
Side note: by right kalau ikutkan the first day of my last mensus, I was supposed to be 14 weeks and 2 days pulang hari atu, but our two earlier scans measured a week behind, so we assume it to be 13 weeks and 2 days lah ah...
Went there, Dr Faridah was on leave for a month, so I had to choose this Chinese female doctor lah im not sure what was her name, lupa sudah 😅
The moment she saw us, Mayra time atu was on the weighing scale, so she just stood there and observed. She asked me, how old was Mayra , so I told her lah coming 1 yr 10 months. She asked my husband, what was her weight. Husband said 9 point something. She said "haaaa??? she's underweight !" while pointing to Mayra. Dalam hatiku, there goes again.... *sigh* ....Mayra is a very picky eater, very fussy, memilih makanan, and she eats too slow...pokok pangkalnya, anak ku ani inda suka makan but she loves to play. Very active lil girl.
Kalau Dr Joel, a Paediatrician (dont mind the spelling pls?) from JPMC he would not and will never say something like that to small kids apatah lagi to the parents. He actually prefers small babies, asalkan active katanya. and he would not suggest any medications or supplements.
But this chinese doctor from CY Lim, sigh... sudah tah serious mukanya mcm kan makan orang 😝, then she asked me to give Mayra supplement mcm Appelin and apakah lagi satu atu I cant remember.
Sorry doctor, not that Im against those ubat2an, but I rather not have my kids mkn synthetic drugs unless kalau banar2 perlu. actually before pregnant dulu I rather opt for homeopathy punya ubat2an for my kids but nak buat mcm mana kan... Dr Zainal sudah passed away 😭
She said to give Mayra Appelin until she reaches 10kg, after that can stop lah. DUI ALANG2.... she was around 9.6kg-9.8kg at that time, then 10kg stop?? I actually had the urge to laugh at her face but of course, I slowly rejected her offer. I said to her, I came to visit her bukan pasal mayra, but it's about my baby in my belly, wanna do NT scan. sigh.... (oh by the way, today Mayra punya weight 10.1kg sudah)
Cut story short, pasal ngaleh sudah typing, baby was measured at 14 weeks 3 days !!! a week and a day ahead !!! woahhh....baby is growing up so fast....slalunya kalau scan ia slalu a week behind.
So the doctor refused to do NT scan pasal it's above the recommended gestational age, instead she only did routine and anatomy test saja, mcm measure kepala, badan, check to make sure all the organs are there, making sure baby is all well and normal.
But one thing yg we dont like about this doctor, she acts as if she knows everything and that she's always right, seolah2 patient ani should have no say. sorry, but no sorry...
We were so hampa when she said this...
"Actually NT Scan should only be done on week 11 and that's about it"
Then I said to her "But doctor, isnt NT scan can be carried out from week 11 to week 14"
she said "no no no, only around week 11 you should do NT scan. if now you want to do NT scan, only through blood test"
paning ku....
even DR DING ever said to me, NT Scan can be done as long as it does not pass the 14th week mark.
this indian doctor from RIPAS also said the same thing, from 11 weeks to 13 weeks 6 days only ujarnya.
we didn't know baby would be of that gestational age, because we were pretty confident baby time atu only around 13 weeks 2 days 😔
apa tah salahnya, check kan tah saja dulu......apa jua 3 days late (since baby measured 14 weeks 3 days) and since we were there and we were paying...but ia mcm inda mau buat...sedih ku eh....
never knew there's a blood test for NT tho....never heard about it...and it costs around $500ish...government clinic pun ada buat, she also said she can make a referral letter, kataku no need lah...menyamal ku sudah...
so now...we tawakkal saja lah, we can only pray that our baby is all well and he/she will lead a very healthy life nanti...
sorry ayat beterabur...it's already late, and I'm so sleepy.
will post another time...
15 weeks 0 days
NT Scan is actually done to detect whether baby has any chromosomal abnormality.
It is ONLY accurate if done in between week 11 and 14 gestational age, if done after week 14 it wont be of no use.
During my first pregnancy haritu, we did this test 3 times.
The first one was at RIPAS, tho it was a very brief check, sekajap saja di check nya. atupun she did that after we requested *pff* otherwise she would have not done it.
Inda puas hati, so the second test was done arah Dr Ding Yayasan, machine quality wise was superb ! So tarang. Clean and clear. His explanation pun patut di puji lah. Worth the money walaupun mahal sikit, but memang sangat2 berbaloi.... let me recall ah, if not mistaken he charged us in between $80-120
Third test, we did arah CY Lim Clinic di Gadong. tho machine nya inda berapa tarang, but we really like the way this one particular doctor membari explanation, very friendly lagi we were so comfortable being with her and she was never karit to give us the printouts banyak2. was charged around $50-75, sorry inda berapa ingat. oh ya, the doctor's name was Dr Emy, but unfortunately she is no longer there, kana replace by Dr Faridah. She's okay.
So.........
This current pregnancy, we did arah CY Lim clinic sebab kan save cost *😋*
We went there on Tuesday night, 10th October 2017, kalau ikut perkiraan I was about 13 weeks and 2 days pregnant.
Side note: by right kalau ikutkan the first day of my last mensus, I was supposed to be 14 weeks and 2 days pulang hari atu, but our two earlier scans measured a week behind, so we assume it to be 13 weeks and 2 days lah ah...
Went there, Dr Faridah was on leave for a month, so I had to choose this Chinese female doctor lah im not sure what was her name, lupa sudah 😅
The moment she saw us, Mayra time atu was on the weighing scale, so she just stood there and observed. She asked me, how old was Mayra , so I told her lah coming 1 yr 10 months. She asked my husband, what was her weight. Husband said 9 point something. She said "haaaa??? she's underweight !" while pointing to Mayra. Dalam hatiku, there goes again.... *sigh* ....Mayra is a very picky eater, very fussy, memilih makanan, and she eats too slow...pokok pangkalnya, anak ku ani inda suka makan but she loves to play. Very active lil girl.
Kalau Dr Joel, a Paediatrician (dont mind the spelling pls?) from JPMC he would not and will never say something like that to small kids apatah lagi to the parents. He actually prefers small babies, asalkan active katanya. and he would not suggest any medications or supplements.
But this chinese doctor from CY Lim, sigh... sudah tah serious mukanya mcm kan makan orang 😝, then she asked me to give Mayra supplement mcm Appelin and apakah lagi satu atu I cant remember.
Sorry doctor, not that Im against those ubat2an, but I rather not have my kids mkn synthetic drugs unless kalau banar2 perlu. actually before pregnant dulu I rather opt for homeopathy punya ubat2an for my kids but nak buat mcm mana kan... Dr Zainal sudah passed away 😭
She said to give Mayra Appelin until she reaches 10kg, after that can stop lah. DUI ALANG2.... she was around 9.6kg-9.8kg at that time, then 10kg stop?? I actually had the urge to laugh at her face but of course, I slowly rejected her offer. I said to her, I came to visit her bukan pasal mayra, but it's about my baby in my belly, wanna do NT scan. sigh.... (oh by the way, today Mayra punya weight 10.1kg sudah)
Cut story short, pasal ngaleh sudah typing, baby was measured at 14 weeks 3 days !!! a week and a day ahead !!! woahhh....baby is growing up so fast....slalunya kalau scan ia slalu a week behind.
So the doctor refused to do NT scan pasal it's above the recommended gestational age, instead she only did routine and anatomy test saja, mcm measure kepala, badan, check to make sure all the organs are there, making sure baby is all well and normal.
But one thing yg we dont like about this doctor, she acts as if she knows everything and that she's always right, seolah2 patient ani should have no say. sorry, but no sorry...
We were so hampa when she said this...
"Actually NT Scan should only be done on week 11 and that's about it"
Then I said to her "But doctor, isnt NT scan can be carried out from week 11 to week 14"
she said "no no no, only around week 11 you should do NT scan. if now you want to do NT scan, only through blood test"
paning ku....
even DR DING ever said to me, NT Scan can be done as long as it does not pass the 14th week mark.
this indian doctor from RIPAS also said the same thing, from 11 weeks to 13 weeks 6 days only ujarnya.
we didn't know baby would be of that gestational age, because we were pretty confident baby time atu only around 13 weeks 2 days 😔
apa tah salahnya, check kan tah saja dulu......apa jua 3 days late (since baby measured 14 weeks 3 days) and since we were there and we were paying...but ia mcm inda mau buat...sedih ku eh....
never knew there's a blood test for NT tho....never heard about it...and it costs around $500ish...government clinic pun ada buat, she also said she can make a referral letter, kataku no need lah...menyamal ku sudah...
so now...we tawakkal saja lah, we can only pray that our baby is all well and he/she will lead a very healthy life nanti...
sorry ayat beterabur...it's already late, and I'm so sleepy.
will post another time...
Tuesday 26 September 2017
Beautifully captured by her mamit padli during Hari Raya 2017 (1 yr 6 mths), that time she was on the floor menangis because mommy ignored her because she was too clingy minta kana kipak and mommy was a bit busy during that time angkat barang =P manja woooo
Saturday 16 September 2017
2017 Updates
Fuhhh...it's been a long time! Malas nak blog coz iPhone made it so hard to get access into blogger site, unlike my Samsung dulu #sigh actually had to pay for the service, which I did try once, and at the end of the day got it uninstalled coz it was not a user-friendly type of app. Samsung dulu free saja, and very easy to use. Kan tukar samsung balik mcm malas jua haha #theBigM
Last update was made somewhere in Nov 2016, I guess..
Alhamdulillah, Mayra is now 1 year and 9 months, a very active lil girl who loves to play slides and enjoy the water, and In sha Allah, by mid of April 2018 she will become a big sister =D coz I am now pregnant with our second baby, still 10 weeks inside the tummy.
I told her Babah to hold back, coz that time I was about to start on Atkins Diet (again! i know...) managed to shed 2.5kg in a week before I realised I was indeed few days late for my period. skali check PT, ada dua line... I had mixed feeling when I know I was pregnant:
1. Oh no....im still fat :( and Im pregnant?? mati lah I will never get a chance to slim down, like foreverrrrrr??????
2. But Im now 34 yrs old, I need more kids before I hit 40.
3. This rezeki, right here in my tummy, inda semua urang dapat merasa, not everyone is blessed to get an easy pregnancy, so why should I whine???? Giving life is far more important than losing weight, or so I thought?
coz being pregnant while you are quite BIG, selalu ada banyak complications. But alhamdulillah, when I got pregnant with Mayra, never had an issue, except aing ketuban bekurangan on week 38.
and Alhamdulillah, this pregnancy, so far semua ok, that day they made me drink Glucose since im HUGE, and a day before the test I ate chocolate and tons of ice cream, BIG TIME, pasal aku lupa besoknya ada glucose test haha...but luckily I PASSED alhamdulillah...no gestational diabetes. mudahan jauh from me..even though all my aunties uncles and both parents have diabetes.
Next scan will be on week 21. But we gonna be doing a scan arah private before week 13 for NT test. I mentioned before on my blog, this test is to check on the thickness of fluid behind the baby's neck, if it's less than 3mm then the risk of down syndrome is very minimal. I wonder why government inda buat this scan...
Supaya anak dalam kandungan ani sihat sempurna dan agar semua urusan berjalan dengan lancar aamiin...
and to those yg masih trying to conceive, I pray to Allah to give you comfort and patience, to bless you with kids in the near future, aamiin ya rabbal alamin....dont lose hope...I went through 4 miscarriages before I get to meet Mayra. pls dont lose hope...and berdoa setiap hari. the time will surely come, perancangan Allah inda pernah salah, pls remember that ladies...
Last update was made somewhere in Nov 2016, I guess..
Alhamdulillah, Mayra is now 1 year and 9 months, a very active lil girl who loves to play slides and enjoy the water, and In sha Allah, by mid of April 2018 she will become a big sister =D coz I am now pregnant with our second baby, still 10 weeks inside the tummy.
I told her Babah to hold back, coz that time I was about to start on Atkins Diet (again! i know...) managed to shed 2.5kg in a week before I realised I was indeed few days late for my period. skali check PT, ada dua line... I had mixed feeling when I know I was pregnant:
1. Oh no....im still fat :( and Im pregnant?? mati lah I will never get a chance to slim down, like foreverrrrrr??????
2. But Im now 34 yrs old, I need more kids before I hit 40.
3. This rezeki, right here in my tummy, inda semua urang dapat merasa, not everyone is blessed to get an easy pregnancy, so why should I whine???? Giving life is far more important than losing weight, or so I thought?
coz being pregnant while you are quite BIG, selalu ada banyak complications. But alhamdulillah, when I got pregnant with Mayra, never had an issue, except aing ketuban bekurangan on week 38.
and Alhamdulillah, this pregnancy, so far semua ok, that day they made me drink Glucose since im HUGE, and a day before the test I ate chocolate and tons of ice cream, BIG TIME, pasal aku lupa besoknya ada glucose test haha...but luckily I PASSED alhamdulillah...no gestational diabetes. mudahan jauh from me..even though all my aunties uncles and both parents have diabetes.
Next scan will be on week 21. But we gonna be doing a scan arah private before week 13 for NT test. I mentioned before on my blog, this test is to check on the thickness of fluid behind the baby's neck, if it's less than 3mm then the risk of down syndrome is very minimal. I wonder why government inda buat this scan...
Supaya anak dalam kandungan ani sihat sempurna dan agar semua urusan berjalan dengan lancar aamiin...
and to those yg masih trying to conceive, I pray to Allah to give you comfort and patience, to bless you with kids in the near future, aamiin ya rabbal alamin....dont lose hope...I went through 4 miscarriages before I get to meet Mayra. pls dont lose hope...and berdoa setiap hari. the time will surely come, perancangan Allah inda pernah salah, pls remember that ladies...
Thursday 24 November 2016
Cycle Day 10
24 November 2016
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I feel a mild pain on my right ovary.
according to the calendar (scroll below), my next ovulation is predicted on 1st December 2016.
so far, no plan yet.
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I feel a mild pain on my right ovary.
according to the calendar (scroll below), my next ovulation is predicted on 1st December 2016.
so far, no plan yet.
More like a stay-at-home mom
24 November 2016
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Thinking about it, I am so blessed to be given an opportunity to look after my baby without having to send her to daycare, or to my parents and parents-in-law (ada lah sekali sekala, esp to my parents-in-law since they live in KB, so I still have to send her there for bonding purpose, coz this baby is so manja, she will be so clingy to those who she sees often, so I dont want her to be distant with her family in KB)
Well, we stopped sending her to daycare when she was 7 month old, after she was diagnosed of having Hand Food Mouth Disease (HFMD), no idea how she got it, maybe ada some loopholes at her school, you know, parents sending their sick kid and all, or she got it during Raya festival. Shrug.
Parents-in-law suggested not to send her there anymore and said they are more than willing to look after her.
Allah is the best of planner. Things happen perfectly at the right timing. Allah is great!
I've been working with this International Business Company (IBC) since 2010, I was the key person besides than our Directors, whom are not based in Brunei. Throughout my service, I miscarried 4 times, everytime I got pregnant, time atu jua lah I got SOO SOOO SOOOO busy with work, maybe it's one of the contributing factors to my miscarriages. My 4th miscarriage happened sometime in 2013.
It made me think...I need to slow down a lil bit. One day I came across this job advertisement looking for a Primary Maths Teacher. Well hey...Maths is my strongest subject, been giving out tuition classes since 2005, so I thought, WHY NOT. why dont I give it a try... Lagipun, I only have to work half day (TIA KARANG), the work is not much not very tiring (TIA KARANG), I get to enjoy more holidays (well while this is true, I do think all teachers deserve this without any prejudice or judgement, since they cant take any day offs during school term anyway, mind you, being a teacher means you are always on the run, walk from one place to another, and to stand still for a long period, SANGAL hehe) but worth it. but that's not the point,....
The point is........AKU MAU AMBIL SUKUT KANAK2. You know, being surrounded with kids, I thought, maybe dapat ambil sukut and mungkin I will indeed get pregnant.
To cut the story short, being interviewed 3 times (first with the principal, second with BOD+principal, third with the MOE and after I passed my teaching demonstration, I got the offer ! Oh my I really love all the kids ! I fall in love with them almost instantly ! My year 4 students pernah cakap "Teacher, kami sudah doakan supaya teacher dapat anak, twins" They made my days better. I love them to bits.
Allah's plan is the greatest of all. From there, I know Teacher Pinky. She is the person who introduced me to Babu Masna, if you follow my story from the beginning, you will know who she is.
She's the person who said "Bisai peranakan mu ani, nah tabal ah, bila2 masa saja boleh betian ni" (ACTUALLY she said this after few months of taking Gaia, coz previously she always said my peranakan LICAK, and my ovaries are always shifted to the right (according to her if this always happened, I will be getting a baby girl, WELL HELLO MAYRA!)
Oh I forgot to mention, when I submitted my resignation letter to this International Company, they didnt allow me to quit since I am the key person there and the first to be hired, they still needed my service, so they made a new contract for me on a part-time basis, I only have to report to work twice a week, 1-2 hours each session, and the pay is half of what I got during my full time. Still high la, siapa kan membari duit beribu sebulan, only work twice a week, 1-2hrs each session. Alhamdulillah rezeki dari Allah. On top of that I also receive my salary from this Primary school, alhamdulillah luas rezeki...duit sentiasa cukup.
I started teaching in Sept 2014, and I got pregnant in April 2015. MY FIFTH PREGNANCY.
Again, I have to make a decision to sustain this pregnancy, after all those miscarriages I was so afraid I would lose another one. SO, I decided to quit teaching :((((((((((((((( for me, I can find money so easily, but I might not get another chance of conceiving. It was a very hard decision tho...
But it was a blessing, coz it made that pregnancy a bit easier to endure, coz nda banyak bekeraja. Tho inda lagi teaching, I am still bonded with my part time work, and still get some $$$ alhamdulillah ya Allah for that rezeki and comfort.
My baby was born on 22nd December 2015 :) the greatest gift I've got from God... Thank you!
Thank you Teacher Pinky, Thank you Babu Masna, Thank you Gaia, Thank you Students yg mendoakan teacher dapat anak, Thank you my Director for being the greatest boss on earth hehe, Thank you cats for absorbing all my stress vibes, Thank you husband for giving me your sample haha, Thank you family for your moral support, Thank you Mayra for that easy pregnancy journey. Siapa lagi ku lupa sabut...Thank you!
Jaga anak is not easy...after she got HFMD, kalau bukan my parentsinlaws and parents yg jaga, I will look after her on my own, coz my prinsip is simple, I do not like and I dont want to menyusahkan people. I rather jaga my own baby atleast nampak di mata2 ia growing.
Now people liat myself mcm inda bekeraja, but I am still bonded with my former company like I said, and I still earn $$$ so inda lah beharap sangat kan duit my husband, coz he also has other commitments. Tunggu tah baby basar sikit or baby sudah sekolah barutah pikir kan full time job. Right now, my main focus is arah baby, my part time job, my online business, tuition classes, and in sha Allah soon, mudahan Tuhan melancarkan segala urusan, to build an empire on my soon-to-be perniagaan, all in God's hands, coz like I said, He is the best of planner.
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Thinking about it, I am so blessed to be given an opportunity to look after my baby without having to send her to daycare, or to my parents and parents-in-law (ada lah sekali sekala, esp to my parents-in-law since they live in KB, so I still have to send her there for bonding purpose, coz this baby is so manja, she will be so clingy to those who she sees often, so I dont want her to be distant with her family in KB)
Well, we stopped sending her to daycare when she was 7 month old, after she was diagnosed of having Hand Food Mouth Disease (HFMD), no idea how she got it, maybe ada some loopholes at her school, you know, parents sending their sick kid and all, or she got it during Raya festival. Shrug.
Parents-in-law suggested not to send her there anymore and said they are more than willing to look after her.
Allah is the best of planner. Things happen perfectly at the right timing. Allah is great!
I've been working with this International Business Company (IBC) since 2010, I was the key person besides than our Directors, whom are not based in Brunei. Throughout my service, I miscarried 4 times, everytime I got pregnant, time atu jua lah I got SOO SOOO SOOOO busy with work, maybe it's one of the contributing factors to my miscarriages. My 4th miscarriage happened sometime in 2013.
It made me think...I need to slow down a lil bit. One day I came across this job advertisement looking for a Primary Maths Teacher. Well hey...Maths is my strongest subject, been giving out tuition classes since 2005, so I thought, WHY NOT. why dont I give it a try... Lagipun, I only have to work half day (TIA KARANG), the work is not much not very tiring (TIA KARANG), I get to enjoy more holidays (well while this is true, I do think all teachers deserve this without any prejudice or judgement, since they cant take any day offs during school term anyway, mind you, being a teacher means you are always on the run, walk from one place to another, and to stand still for a long period, SANGAL hehe) but worth it. but that's not the point,....
The point is........AKU MAU AMBIL SUKUT KANAK2. You know, being surrounded with kids, I thought, maybe dapat ambil sukut and mungkin I will indeed get pregnant.
To cut the story short, being interviewed 3 times (first with the principal, second with BOD+principal, third with the MOE and after I passed my teaching demonstration, I got the offer ! Oh my I really love all the kids ! I fall in love with them almost instantly ! My year 4 students pernah cakap "Teacher, kami sudah doakan supaya teacher dapat anak, twins" They made my days better. I love them to bits.
Allah's plan is the greatest of all. From there, I know Teacher Pinky. She is the person who introduced me to Babu Masna, if you follow my story from the beginning, you will know who she is.
She's the person who said "Bisai peranakan mu ani, nah tabal ah, bila2 masa saja boleh betian ni" (ACTUALLY she said this after few months of taking Gaia, coz previously she always said my peranakan LICAK, and my ovaries are always shifted to the right (according to her if this always happened, I will be getting a baby girl, WELL HELLO MAYRA!)
Oh I forgot to mention, when I submitted my resignation letter to this International Company, they didnt allow me to quit since I am the key person there and the first to be hired, they still needed my service, so they made a new contract for me on a part-time basis, I only have to report to work twice a week, 1-2 hours each session, and the pay is half of what I got during my full time. Still high la, siapa kan membari duit beribu sebulan, only work twice a week, 1-2hrs each session. Alhamdulillah rezeki dari Allah. On top of that I also receive my salary from this Primary school, alhamdulillah luas rezeki...duit sentiasa cukup.
I started teaching in Sept 2014, and I got pregnant in April 2015. MY FIFTH PREGNANCY.
Again, I have to make a decision to sustain this pregnancy, after all those miscarriages I was so afraid I would lose another one. SO, I decided to quit teaching :((((((((((((((( for me, I can find money so easily, but I might not get another chance of conceiving. It was a very hard decision tho...
But it was a blessing, coz it made that pregnancy a bit easier to endure, coz nda banyak bekeraja. Tho inda lagi teaching, I am still bonded with my part time work, and still get some $$$ alhamdulillah ya Allah for that rezeki and comfort.
My baby was born on 22nd December 2015 :) the greatest gift I've got from God... Thank you!
Thank you Teacher Pinky, Thank you Babu Masna, Thank you Gaia, Thank you Students yg mendoakan teacher dapat anak, Thank you my Director for being the greatest boss on earth hehe, Thank you cats for absorbing all my stress vibes, Thank you husband for giving me your sample haha, Thank you family for your moral support, Thank you Mayra for that easy pregnancy journey. Siapa lagi ku lupa sabut...Thank you!
Jaga anak is not easy...after she got HFMD, kalau bukan my parentsinlaws and parents yg jaga, I will look after her on my own, coz my prinsip is simple, I do not like and I dont want to menyusahkan people. I rather jaga my own baby atleast nampak di mata2 ia growing.
Now people liat myself mcm inda bekeraja, but I am still bonded with my former company like I said, and I still earn $$$ so inda lah beharap sangat kan duit my husband, coz he also has other commitments. Tunggu tah baby basar sikit or baby sudah sekolah barutah pikir kan full time job. Right now, my main focus is arah baby, my part time job, my online business, tuition classes, and in sha Allah soon, mudahan Tuhan melancarkan segala urusan, to build an empire on my soon-to-be perniagaan, all in God's hands, coz like I said, He is the best of planner.
Wednesday 23 November 2016
Sunday 6 November 2016
Baby number 2? 🤔
Im a bit excited to see my OPK lines, but... hmm my hubby is not ready he said, thinking about his financial state, not that we are poor and have no money 😅 but we are now focusing on filling up our bank accounts in case of emergency and we are now planning on buying a house in the near future.
On my perspective, I think money is easy to find, but to conceive is based on luck 😭 especially with my age now (33), I really wish he can think ahead and start his semen analysis test anytime soon. erm..
